Chapter 6: Begging For Love

CHAPTER 6

Subtitle: BEGGING FOR LOVE.

(Loving you wasn't part of the deal)

Barricades Bar....

Lillian sat in the bar, drinking a bottle of tequila.

"He doesn't love me right?" She laughed maniacally . "Waiter, give me two bottles of vodka!" She yelled.

"Ma'am please go home, it's too early to get drunk." The waiter said.

"Drunk?" She laughed. "Do you know what it feels to love someone and he doesn't love you the same way?" She said as tears threatened to fall from her eyes.

The waiter stood staring at her, it wasn't his job to console someone who wants to be loved.

"I guess you absolutely don't know how it feels." She sniffled.

The waiter shook his head sideways and he continued with what he was doing.

He had no choice but to bring the two bottles of vodka to her. It was his job after all.

She took the bottle of vodka and she continued drinking.

"Milo, Milo." She mumbled as she drank.

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Few minutes later, she stood up and staggered out of the bar, thankfully she managed to pay for everything she drank.

She got to her car and she drove out of the premises.

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"Milo dear, please stay for a while." Helen Pleaded.

"Mum you know I really want to be with you, but for now, I can't." He said. Helen sighed.

"I promise you son, I'll work hard and I'll pay back my debt. " Francis said pathetically. He knew deep down that he couldn't get such an amount of money in the next ten years to come.

"Don't worry Dad, if this is how I am going to live my life, then it's fine." Milo said. He didn't want to add up to his family's problem.

"I'll take my leave now." Milo said, but Helen immediately held his hand.

"Milo, I'm sorry." She apologized, she knew it's because of her that he's in this mess.

"I love you mum." Milo simply said, ignoring her apologies.

He hugged his Dad, and he did the same to his mum.

"Bye." He waved and he walked out.

Tears slowly trickled down Helen's eyes.

Francis went to her, then he embraced her and she cried in his arms.

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Milo got home and he headed straight to the bedroom, he met Lillian staring directly at him.

"Oh my goodness, I'm in a deep shit." He mumbled. Lillian warned him never to go out without her permission.

"Where are you coming from?" Lillian asked, her eyes fixed on him.

"I..went ...to..I.." Milo stammered, not knowing what to say.

"You left me again right?" Lillian asked and that was when Milo noticed her puffy face, the tears in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" He couldn't help but ask.

Lillian stood up, and she went to him.

"I love you Milo, I love you so much, why can't you love me huh?" She said and that was when Milo perceived the alcoholic smell that lingered around her.

"Stop it Lillian, you're drunk." Milo said.

"No Milo, I'm not drunk, I'm not."She cried. "Tell me Milo, why can't you love me." She said, then she rushed to hug him.

"Lillian." Milo called.

He didn't even hug her back.

"Please Milo, tell me, why can't you love me." She said once more. "Just give me what I want Milo, and I promise to make everything right again, you have no idea how much I love you Milo, I love you so much." Lillian said. Milo sighed.

"You're drunk Lillian, you have no idea what you're saying." Milo said, then he tried pushing her away, but she refused to let him go.

"Stop pushing me away!" She yelled in tears. "Stop pushing me away Milo, I refuse to let you go."

"Please Lillian, just stop this, you should go get some sleep instead, that's what you need right now." Milo said.

He felt some ounce of pity seeing her like this, but what could he do, he can't bring himself to fall in love with Lillian, he just can't do it.

"I don't want to sleep Milo, that's not what I need right now, what I need is you Milo, only you." She said, then she raised her head to look at him.

"Am I not beautiful? Am I not sexy enough for you? Why don't you find me attractive Milo?"

"Lillian, Lillian, please stop this drama, let me go." Milo said.

"No!" She refused, then she tightened her hold. "I won't let you go Milo, I won't let you go until you finally accept me and make love to me." She told him. "Don't you get it? I love you Milo, I love you and I want you, why don't you want me back." She cried.

"I fell madly in love with you the first day I saw you, that's why I did everything possible to make you mine, don't do this to me Milo, please."

"I'll do anything you want, I'll do anything you ask me to do, just please love me back Milo, please." She cried.

"Anything?" Milo scoffed. "Truly, people can do anything in a drunken state, just look at you right now Lillian, take a good look at yourself and what you're saying."

"You say you can do anything for me, but we both know there's nothing you can offer me."

"The only thing I want right now is my freedom Lillian, the only thing I want is to be free from you and your father, can you give me that?" He said, staring deeply into her eyes.

Lillian was unable to provide an answer to his question.

"Answer me Lillian!" He yelled.

He waited a while for her reply, and when she said nothing, he scoffed.

"So you see, there's nothing you can offer me, now get your hands off me."

"Mi.. ."

He didn't let her complete her sentence before pushing her away.

"Go to sleep Lillian." Milo said, then he made to leave the bedroom.

"How do you expect me to let you go so easily?" Lillian said . Milo halted.

"I won't ever let you go Milo. Never." She stated.

Milo ignored her words, he simply left the bedroom.

He heard the sound of something being smashed, but he didn't seem to care, she could destroy the whole bedroom if she wanted to, he wouldn't give a damn.

"I'll never give you what you want Lillian. Never."

TBC…