5) Nicolai!

Nicolai's pov

This eternity never felt so empty and dark. We weren't complaining about it until she came in our lives, gave us hope of lights and then pushed into darkness again.

Serenity, My mate. I don't know why I can't hate her after whatever she has done to us. I tried but i can't hate her.

My eyes wondered on the dense forest where we used to spend our time. I miss her. Her innocent smile, her laugh, everything was so pure and euphoric but it was just a facade.

She killed our daughter, was is that easy for her. It was hard to believe but she herself showed us the past and she is clearly guilty of it.

It broke me from inside. My little angel is not with us anymore and it's all her fault. Sometimes my heart hurts whenever I think about my daughter, she would have grown in big woman now. Princess of this empire.

Why serenity why, why you did that? Wasn't your power enough for you. You were already so Powerful then what made you kill your own daughter.

You betrayed us and our love.

I was so happy when I first saw her. She was in my arms when we broke the curse. I wasn't that gentle but I changed myself because I know it will be difficult for Lucifer and Vincent. They can't express themselves like me.

She was so innocent, no one would have guess that she is the oldest and most powerful supernatural in existence. There was no arrogance in her.

It was incredible feeling to introduce her to herself. She had forgotten everything and it was painful for us.

She said she can't become a mother because of the venom she has inside her. We were disappointed but we didn't say anything because we knew that it's not her fault. But she got pregnant with my Angel and I was the happiest man on the earth.

She definitely lighten up our lives. 

No matter how much I try, i can't forget those sweet moments which we have shared. She said I am her safe place.

It's so painful to think about her, my dead heart fills with unbearable pain. She should have compel us too. I want to forget her because i can't bear this pain.

I never wanted to let her go but Lucifer didn't listen to me. I don't know why but it's still hard for me to believe that serenity can do something like that despite of all evidences.

My stupid heart wasn't ready to listen, I tried to find her but looks like she is hiding well. After she left, no one has heard about her. May be she is there but no one recognises her. She can manipulate everyone with her powers.

I was so proud that my mate is so powerful yet so humble but she proved me wrong.

The chain of her thoughts doesn't seem to break at all. It's been hundred years and there is not even a one day when I didn't think about her.

I never desired this seperation but i can't forgive her for whatever she has done.

May be she never loved us because not even once she fight to prove herself innocent. She left and never turned back.

She didn't wanted us from the beginning, we didn't let her go. May be we should have let her go.

Sighing I sat on the ground leaning against the big tree trunk. Suddenly sharp pain rose below my neck Making me grunt in pain.

This is not the first time, she has marked us too. The mark of dagger with snake around it is still present on our back and it hurts. It hurts whenever I think about her.

The more we mourn the more it hurts.

I wanted to ask so many things to her. I have thousands of questions but she isn't here to answer.

Sometimes I wonder what she must be doing without us because we are not doing well.

I am glad that she compelled my father too, he has blind faith on her. He would have been in immense pain after her doings but thankfully she made him forget everything.

I haven't feel myself smiling in these hundred years.

Vincent has completely changed. He never takes her name like she didn't exist for him but i know he is hurting too. I have seen him screaming in pain and it was worst than mine. She didn't say it but he thinks about her too.

And Lucifer has completely lost himself and we have no idea how to heal him.

I will never forgive you for this serenity, we were already broken and you destroyed us completely.

My head snapped towards the Castle when I heard Lucifer's painful scream. My heart breaks whenever he screams like this.

I always thought that Lucifer is the strongest among us but i was wrong, he has the softest heart. Vincent and i mourned in every way, let our pain out but Lucifer didn't.

He never let it out which is hurting him more. He is mourning for his daughter and can't forget his mate. He loved her more than his life.

He wasn't social like Vincent and me. Serenity changed that, she was making him smile. He loved to communicate with her but when she left us Lucifer fell into deep darkness and we couldn't save him.

I don't remember when was the last time when we had conversation. He has completely isolate himself.

I don't want to deal with anyone either but we are kings and we have responsibilities. We have to face our father too, sometimes he asks why Lucifer is behaving like this and i have no answer.

Vincent wants us to attend the event in university. He said that it will help to distract us but i doubt and i am more worried about Lucifer. I don't know how will he behave there.

But as a king i can't turn my back on my people, they need me and i have to fullfill my duties.

But before that I have to control Lucifer.