4) Forgotten!

Serenity's pov

"How do you know that they had a queen?"

I asked confused. I left the compulsion in the air so nobody remembers me.

Albert shrugged.

"Everyone knows... But no one knows who is she and how she looks"

He replied.

Is it not working, what's happening. They aren't supposed to remember anything.

"When are they coming?"

I asked.

"May be tomorrow or in the evening."

He replied.

"Why what happened... Are you excited to see them too?... You know, girls are going crazy. Actually i haven't seen them but they say that kings are very handsome."

My heart started beating like a drum after hearing their name from someone else's mouth.

"Please excuse me"

I said and walked away. I have to do something about it. It's dangerous.

I ran outside in the garden while ignoring everyone's weird gaze. I stopped at my regular place where I water magical plants. No one is allowed here except the caretaker.

My breath came out in pants, i am getting tired now a days. Another signal that i am becoming a human again. I sat down leaning against the well compound.

After hundred years I am going to see them but should I really see them. I don't want to see that hate in their eyes, it will break me even more.

May be, i should leave from here. I don't have a courage to face them. I don't blame them anymore, they are right in their places to hate me. Afterall i killed their daughter.

I still don't understand how that happened. Angel and I was playing that day. She was running in the garden, giggling in her cute eyes. My daughter was really an angel. Suddenly she collapsed on the ground and i rushed towards her, next thing I remember is Lucifer's scream which brought me out of my daze.

But I saw the past, i was taking her powers. I really killed my own daughter. I am the only reason behind her death. May be Vincent is right that I am greedy. I have killed so many supernaturals that my body isn't able to take their powers, I have lost control many times, may be that's what happened with Angel.

But it hurts, I didn't do it on purpose. Not because I was jealous of my own daughter, how can I be jealous of my own baby. I can never think of hurting her. Their words are still affecting me in worst way possible. Till now i have fought many wars and fights but nothing hurt me like their words. It's unbearable.

May be i don't deserve happiness. First I loved the Arthur thinking that he is my mate but he was just a man on whom my venom didn't work. He cheated on me with my own sister.

I agree that i killed my sister but She deserved it, she caged me in a stone for thousands of years. I gave her many chances but she didn't stop. It wasn't selfish decision, i wasn't enjoying killing my own sister like Vincent accused me. How can he say that when he knows what Eliana did to me.

Most powerful in the world doesn't mean that you are the happiest one too. I was living under the shadows of loneliness which no one saw, not even my mates. These powers felt more like a curse.

They think i enjoy these powers, everything is under my control and I can rule the world with it.

They can't be more wrong about it. Venom inside me won't let me touch any living thing because just a scratch from me and it will burn down in ashes. I live in a constant fear that i will hurt someone innocent. I can't be evil, i can't kill people for my selfishness because then nature will punish me. I have these powers of five elements because I am pure, my blood is pure. That's why I am worthy. My grandmother knew about it that why she did this to me. I never wanted these powers.

I was afraid that if i turn evil then I will end up like my grandmother. I don't want that kind of life. You can win against everything but not nature which is source of my powers.

It's not easy to handle as it looks. I never opened all my secrets in front of my mates thinking it will make them sad. They hardly knows anything about me and still they judged me so easily. They thinks that having so much power is blessing but they have no idea that it comes with sacrifice.

Any changes in five elements hurts me too.

My skin burns whenever thunder growls in the sky and it hurts. My body temperature rises whenever I am near fire. Human inside me is scared of water but i can't show it to anyone. It's not easy to balance five elements of nature in one body. People only notice success, not struggle behind it.

After finding my mates, I thought my sufferings have finally ended but i was wrong. It didn't even take a second for them to take me as a guilty. Like they knew that i will do something like that.

I don't want to forgive them, I never will but i can't deny the fact that my heart still beats for them. They have all rights to hate me because i couldn't prove myself innocent. But i was expecting little trust.

I don't have much time left, my compulsion is breaking with loosing powers. Soon everyone will remember me and my life will become more difficult.

I hope i die before that. This guilt is unbearable and i am tired of this lone life.

Kings won't like seeing me here but i want to see them before i die. I heart won't feel at peace. Once last time, i want to see my mates. Only few days then i will leave this place, i won't interfere in their lives.

But i can't go in front of them. I have to do something about it. As soon as they enter the campus they will get my scent and will know that i am here. I have to hide my scent.

I looked at the magical plants, It's forbidden to use it without the permission of campus authority but i don't have any other way.

I stole the big white flower which resembles Jasmine, it will change the scent of my body. I hope it works. 

My heart is still beating fast, what if Kings see me. How they will react? Do they still remember me or i am forgotten long time ago?