Chapter 7

SAM POV.

I approached my son and kissed him. I haven't been able to get dressed yet because of Sofia's sudden arrival here. My heart aches every time I catch Kiel staring at Sofia's face. My chest tightens every time they stare. I sat next to my son with kiel next to him facing sofia. I swallowed and started to take food. Why is that? Is it easy to cancel his meeting just so he can eat with them while we are?

I took a deep breath when I felt the physical pain of my heart. I don't know what I feel but I can only say one thing. I was hurt while looking at the two staring at each other. I looked away because I couldn't see their eyes that said they still love each other.

"This one is ur favorite right Ezekiel?" I looked at Sofia who suddenly spoke. He smiled as he put the beef stake on Kiel's plate. I swallowed how kiel looked at sofia. I'm hurt by the way he stares at her. I'm hurting.

"Y-yeah!."

F*CK!!

Kiel's voice was hoarse as he spoke. I didn't know he liked that food. I do not know. My tears were welling up but I stopped them by biting my lip.

"ohh you know kiel hija's favorite dish?" Mommy was shocked. I bowed down in shame. My grip on my fork tightened. I bowed even more.

"yes mommy! I'm the one cooking this, right Ezekiel?" sofia said happily. My heart ached even more. I am his wife but I don't know anything about his likes. I'm your husband but it doesn't seem like it. Kiel nodded, I saw it from the corner of my eye.

"Yes, by the way, you have a past. How about you, Sam? Do you know what your husband wants?" Mom asked suddenly, stopping me. I swallowed and shook my head. My mother's shoulders dropped as if dissapointed.

"Ohh?..." Sofia whistled. I didn't speak anymore. My throat is blocked. Bowed down and felt a little shy. I looked at Kiel who was just staring at Sofia.

I avoided immediately. My heart is broken. Kiel can break my heart with fine detail. I bit my lip as tears started to flow. I looked at my son who just ate as if he wasn't listening.

It's ok Sam.

I smiled bitterly to myself. After a while, we finished eating immediately. I followed to the kitchen to put the dishes we used. It is my habit to help the assistants. I entered the kitchen but also stopped when I saw...

Sofia leaning on the kitchen sink while Kiel corners her. Kiel trapped sofia with his arms. I almost dropped the plate I was holding.

"F*ck. I missed you"

My tears, which I had been holding back, started to flow. I couldn't hold back my tears because I was so hurt.

SAM POV.

I retreated. My vision was blurry but that didn't stop me from seeing them kiss. My tears flowed one after the other. I was weak but I strengthened my body. I returned to the dining area and returned the plate I was holding. Good thing manang was in the dining area because mommy was already in the living room. I wiped my tears.

"Why? Where are you going?" Manang said suddenly when he saw that I had returned the dishes that I should have put in the kitchen. My tears flowed. I was hurt by what I saw and heard. They kissed. I don't know what I feel, I'm hurt.

"I'm just going to get dressed." My voice trembled. I turned back and didn't wait for manang to answer. My tears started to fall as I went upstairs. Next my tears flowed like rain. I almost wanted to run to our room to release the pain.

When I opened the door, I cried. I was leaning against the door while looking up crying. I'm hurting. I was hurt by what I heard and saw. My heart aches. My tears flowed even more when I saw them kiss.

They still love each other.

I faint just thinking about it. How do sofia and kiel ask my parents? I closed my eyes tightly, my mother couldn't do that. I cried even more when the image of them entered me while Sofia was leaning against the sink and Kiel was holding her.

Maybe they miss each other. is sofia my sister? It's very complicated. My situation is difficult. I slowly sat down while still crying. I'm in pain but I can't do anything. I further confirmed that they still love each other. One by one my tears fell like rain.

"Samantha?"

I stopped crying when I heard manang's voice and knock. I wiped my tears but they still flowed.

"P-what?" My voice trembled when I spoke.

"Are you okay?." My tears flowed more and more at the question of manang. Maybe he sensed that I was feeling bad. I shook my head because I'm not ok. I'm hurt because I'm your wife but I don't know anything about kiel. I am hurt because they still love each other.

"O-o ok" I lied

Tears flowed one after the other as I slowly stood up to get ready. That's fine Sam, that's fine. He will learn to love. That's fine and you can do it. I'm trying to convince myself that I'm fine but the truth is..

No!

I went into the bathroom and continued crying there. I entered the shower room and I immediately felt the cold water on my body at the same time as my tears flowed down my cheeks.

SAM POV.

I felt the cold water flow all over my body. I didn't pay attention to my tears that flowed one after another. I let it go. After a while I finished. I went straight to the closet to get dressed. My eyes were puffy but I put a little make up on my face. I left the room and acted like nothing happened. Act normal. I took a deep breath before slowly going down. It's noisy even though I'm still quite far from them.

Their eyes were on me immediately when they saw me come down. My son was on dad's lap while drinking chuckie. Kiel was on another sofa. My heart ached when I remembered what they did. I want to tell them. I want to blame them but I'm afraid I'll be the one at fault again. I'm afraid, I'm the bad one. I was scared, I was the one who hurt. I looked away and sat next to mom.

"What took you so long?" mommy looking at me. I leaned on the backrest and looked at Sofia who was smiling at me. Is that true? I can't read sofia's thoughts and movements. It smiled big at me while I watched it carefully.

"I just took a bath and got dressed." I also smiled at my mother even though inside I felt like I was being crushed. I tried to smile sweetly and showed them no problem.

"by the samantha?" I turned to sofia when she spoke.

"I change my mind, I'll pick you up here tonight." I frowned at this. We all looked at it.

"What we talked about Sam? Did you forget?" He said as if he was hurt. I thought it was next week? I shook my head at Sofia's words. I didn't forget, I just thought it was next week.

"Where are you going?" My father is serious. I turned to my husband and my heart ached again as he just stared at Sofia, every movement of Sofia he followed with his eyes. I looked away

"I just want to be with my sister dad? Sam and I will bond as siblings." Sofia said happily while I was in pain. I bow down

"I can't Sofia, I'm sorry." I said boldly because I still don't want to be with him. I looked at my mother who was looking at me badly again.

"What? Come on Sam? You made a promised" Sofia was shocked.

"If you give your sister Samantha first?" My mother is serious. I don't know what to feel. I looked at Kiel who was still staring at Sofia. I took a deep breath before nodding.

"yawn, it's ok for you Ezekiel right?" Sofia asked tenderly but no one noticed. Their eyes met as if they were talking with their eyes.

"of course it's ok!" kiel replied coldly. I can't be civil. When it came to my brother it was different. I swallowed because my throat was blocked.

"it's settled then, I'll pick you up here tonight Sam, get ready."