chapter 3 : leaving

* 3 years ago *

I went to my room after what happened. It's been one week since the rejection that only Courtney knows about. She was so angry at first that she even tried to barge into Damien's room but I luckily talked her out of it.

She would have had to face punishment for disrespecting an Alpha and it wasn't pretty to say the least.

Pain has been so constant in my life. I've learned to bare it but what I wasn't prepared for was the pain I felt after two days following the rejection.

I felt like all of the pain in the world was forced upon my being and it literally felt like my heart would tear into two. I couldn't even breath and the next thing I know darkness consumed my vision and I blacked out.

It was later that day when I was found by Courtney. I was lying on my bedroom floor in a heap with purple and black bruises covering my stomach, thighs and my hands.

I couldn't understand what caused it so I asked Courtney. When she was about to reply, I could see the look of pity and hesitancy on her face. I could feel the agonizing pain as she told me.

"I'm sorry for being the one to inform you and that you're going through this, but this kind of pain takes place to let you know when your other half is having sexual intercourse with someone other than you. Hence the reason why there are bruises littering your body." Courtney said and it didn't take a genius to figure out what my mate, Damien was doing and with who, Emily.

My whole world shattered and my wolf was constantly whimpering. Later on she blocked me and retreated into the back of my mind and has not made her presence known since.

I have been ignoring Emily since Damien arrived and I would flee the moment I'd see her try to approach me. I guess that she later caught on to the fact that I was trying to avoid her but she didn't know why.

I felt bad though but seeing him and her together was too much for me to handle.

I stumbled upon Damien one day after the whole blacking out scene and he knew from my facial expression that I knew that he had sex with Emily and he didn't even try to deny nor explain it.

I have been staying more in my room. Going out only when I'm hungry and at midnight while everyone in the pack is asleep. Courtney comes and checks upon me constantly but she knows that I need time to taken in things.

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Courtney had been the one to come and tell me about what had been going on within the pack house. Apparently, Damien had taken up the Alpha position and there was no ceremony done, as he didn't want one.

She had come into my room one morning saying that there was an important pack meeting and how all of the members of the pack were expected to attend it.

I sigh knowing there is no way I can stay in my room and if I did, it would mean that I'm blatantly disrespecting the Alpha.

Courtney and I arrive at the pack grounds where the meeting was meant to take place, and I'm not surprised to find most of the pack members including the Elders, warriors, teens and even toddlers present there. Everyone has been talking to each other and trying to figure out why there was an important meeting called up in the first place.

It's only when Damien climbs up on to the stage along with Beta Sean, who is Courtney's Dad, that all the murmuring and chattering turns into dead silence. It's really fascinating to see the effect Damien has over the pack.

He clears his throat and starts to say "As you all know I've called up this gathering to inform you all about something important that will affect the packs future greatly." He pauses for a moment as all the pack has been silently waiting with baited breath for him to make the announcement  and he continues on saying "I want to introduce you all to my mate and your future Luna, Emily Christy.”

The pack members all break out in excited chatter, as this is good news and she would be the new Luna. Midnight Moon Pack has not had a Luna for almost a decade. Their last Luna, Damien's mother, was killed by rogues. 

Ever since her death, it's just been Damien’s dad, Alpha Calvin Blackwood, whose been leading the pack along with the help of Courtney's dad, Beta Sean.

My eyes, which had been fixed on the ground all along, snap up to meet his and my, face crumbles seeing him already looking at me with a cold look in his eyes.

I thought my wolf would at least whimper and try to come out of her shell hearing this but no. I don't feel any connection to her at this point, and all I feel is pitch black emptiness.

It doesn't come across as a surprise that he choose someone like her. Emily had a light tan complexion with blonde hair and greyish blue doe like eyes and do not forget those long legs and lean body. She was an angel compared to me. I am someone with a pale complexion with boring hazel brown eyes, brown hair and oh not to forget a curvy figure.

Emily climbs on to the stage from the front of the crowd and places her hand in his and turns to flash a smile at the excited and happy pack members.

"Silence." Damien says and everyone instantly stops chattering.

"We have both decided to get married with in the time period of the next two weeks." That one sentence was all it took for me to break and I knew it was the last straw. I shoot Damien, who is already looking at me, a look with a mixture of hurt, betrayal and anger.

I back away from the crowd from my earlier position. All the while my eyes are pinned to his which are looking back at me with emptiness. I shift into my wolf who releases a sad howl but no one notices as they all are so consumed with excitement. I run toward the pack house and reach there within record time.

I shift into human form and go to my room and start packing all my necessities and some money I've saved by working in a cafe, into my duffel bag. When I'm almost finished packing, I sense a presence behind me.

I turn around and find Courtney standing in the doorway with tears streaming down her face."So you're just leaving like that." Her voice cracks in the end and when I try to open my mouth and say something she stops me by hugging me tightly.

We embrace each other for a few minutes not saying anything, and when we pull apart, we both look like a train wreck with mascara and tears running down our faces.

"Where are you planning to go?" She asks me after a moment of silence. I sigh knowing there is no way I can lie "I don't know, I was thinking maybe I could live among the humans." I reply and look at her anxiously to hear her reply.

"Well it's at least better than going into the no man's land." she replies and I agree.

It is dangerous out there and you have to always watch your back. There are harmful creatures and vicious rogues out there lurking in the darkness.

"I will miss you, you know. Not to mention Alex and your parents definitely will miss you too." She says and again tears fill my eyes I can't remember the last time I talked to them. I've been so caught up with the rejection and pain that I completely avoided my family that loves me immensely.

"Tell them I love them and that I'm sorry." I say and she nods her head solemnly.

"I have to go now, before anyone returns and sees me." I say and tears fill her eyes. I give her a weak smile and climb upon my windowsill.

I jump and I shift into my dark chocolate brown wolf with light brown highlight in mid jump with the straps of my duffel bag clamped between my jaw, and I run into the forest.

Hoping for a New Start.

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