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He still held on to me with his dick snuggled inside of me. Carter pulled back a little to look at me, realization hit him like a truck. He pulled out and safely placed me back on my feet, my legs felt like jelly. He turned around to find his boxers, I slowly picked up my underwear and slipped them back on.

I awkwardly stood there staring at him, I didn’t know exactly what to say after what just happened.

« Leave. » Carter demanded with no emotion whatsoever.

« But we just had se-«

« I just needed a quick fuck and you were just here. » Carter sat back in his chair, typing something on his computer not even caring to make eye contact with me.

He’s such a bastard, I just betrayed my mother for him and that’s all he has to say, my eyes started to get watery.

Why do all guys treat me badly after sex ? Is it because I’m not good enough ?

« You’re such a dick. » I grabbed my shorts and stormed out of his office.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I entered my room. I slammed the door with so much force I thought I was going to knock down the whole damn house. I slid down my bedroom door while my hands ranked through my blonde hair, I was a sobbing mess.

Maybe it was because of the fact I slept with my mom’s fiancé or maybe it was because he treated me like a whore afterward.

I hate myself.

I haven’t left my room for the past two, I haven’t eaten, I’ve just been drinking water which is bad because a human body needs food but after what I did, I just don’t feel human anymore. My mother has been knocking on my door for a couple of days now, begging me to talk to her or even let her in but I refused.

How can I look my mom in the eyes after what I did ? I haven’t heard anything from Carter, he hasn’t even begged me not to tell my mom.

« Bunny, someone is here for you. » My mom’s sweet voice came from behind my door. I threw my white sheets off of me and tipped toed over to the door, I leaned over and placed my ear on the door trying to catch a familiar voice.

« It’s me, Heidi. »

What the fuck is she doing here ?

I opened my door in a hurry and threw my arms over her neck pulling her closer to me, Heidi was shocked at first but quickly recovered by hugging me back. Heidi is my cousin from my dad’s side, she’s basically like my sister, it’s always been me, Gracie, and Heidi but after my dad left us, she also left me.

« I can’t believe you’re here. » I said, getting very emotional with my words.

« I owe you a visit, didn’t I ? » Her thick accent came peaking through.

« I missed you so much. » I declared with a small smile, we pulled apart from each other but locked our hands together.

« I knew you would come out from your room. » My mom smiles sweetly at me, then everything hits me all at once. I’m standing in front of my mom after fucking her fiancé last night, I felt sick to my stomach, and my smile turns into a frown.

« Are you alright ? » Heidi asked, clearly concerned for my wellness. She placed the back of her hand gently across my forehead, checking my temperature.

I must’ve looked pale

« I’m f-fine. » I stumbled over my words.

« Let’s all go eat at Momma’s Berry’s like we use to when you guys were younger. » My mom said excitedly.

Fuck no, I don’t want to be around you or your fiancé.

« That would be amazing. » Heidi jumped up and down like a child, I couldn’t bare to say no.

« Sure. » I whispered.

Heidi and my mom went downstairs while I got ready. I decided on wearing some leggings and a white tube top, paired with my baggy denim jacket.

I slowly walked downstairs not wanting to make noise, I walked into the kitchen to see Heidi drinking some water and my mom sitting on Carter’s lap. I wanted to stomp over to my mom and detach her body from Carter’s but the sound of kissing made me stop, he was eating her lips right in front of me. I tighten my hand around the edge of my jacket, trying to keep my calm.

« You look cute. » Heidi said.

« Thanks. » I smile at Heidi, completely ignoring my mom and Carter.

« Let’s go girls. » My mom started walking with Carter’s hand wrapped around hers. God, I’ve never wanted to break an arm so bad.

Stop it. Isabella

The car ride was quiet, Heidi was amazed by how different it is here than back home. I kept my gaze outside the window, watching the bright blue sky turning dark. Momma Berry’s is where mom and dad would take me and Heidi when we were smaller, I miss my dad so much.

I wonder if my dad misses me.

We got a table right outside, my cousin and I sat together and my mom and Carter sat across from us. I kept my eyes focused on anything and anyone else but Carter.

« So Heidi, how’s your mother ? » My mom questions.

« She’s doing great. » She replies. « Also, I’m so sorry about my uncle, my mom told me about it. »

« It’s fine, we’ve moved on. » My mom kisses Carter’s cheek. I tighten my hand around Heidi’s, she gives me a curious look.

« I see. » Heidi smiles. « Carter, what do you do for a living ? » Heidi asks.

Carter takes a while to answer before words smoothly come out of his mouth. « I own a business. »

« Oh nice. » Heidi replies.

« What about Gracie and that guy, what’s his name again. »

« Ryan. » I whispered. Heidi nodded quickly, I couldn’t help but look down at my lap. « I don’t talk to either of them anymore. » I said.

« But you and Ryan were so cute together with your secret little relationship. » She says in awe while thinking of Ryan and me, only if she knew what happened.

« It’s over. » I snapped at her, I didn’t mean for my voice to come out so snappy it just did. Heidi must’ve noticed my shoulders tense up because she changes the subject fairly quickly.

« I’m just glad to see you guys again. » She smiles. « Especially with everything that’s happening with Lydia. »

« Talking about her, she’s been super depressed. » My mom mentions.

« That’s horrible. »

« I was wondering if maybe you could come with me to visit her, she hasn’t been eating or going out. She would be so happy to see you, Heidi. » My mom explains.

Fuck that means their leaving me alone with Carter, I have to try to make them stay.

« Of course, I will. » She smiles again, warmly at her.

Fucking Heidi, is always being too nice for her good.

« Mom, do you have to go ? » I questioned.

Please she say no, I can’t handle being alone with him again.

« Yes, sweetie. » She says.

We continued to eat in silence, I didn’t bother to try and talk to Carter or even look at him, I physically couldn’t. Heidi was talking about her college and stuff that’s been going on in her life lately while I try to think of an escape plan for the home-alone situation.

« I have to take this phone call. » Carter said to my mom, who nodded.

Carter stepped outside, far away from us. I was curious why this phone call was so urgent, he normally always ignores his calls when he’s out with us. I couldn’t help but lean over the table a little to try and hear anything but I heard nothing. After a couple of seconds he came rushing inside, grabbing his coat off the chair.

« I’m sorry I have to go. Something happened with my package for work and I need to handle it. » He kissed my mom and turned around to face me. « I called an uber to take you home. » He exited the restaurant quickly.

This is so weird, Carter is acting weird. My mom and Heidi continued eating their delicious meal, I kept playing with my food using my fork while thinking about his quick exit, my mom didn’t even find it suspicious at all.

We all walked out of the restaurant once we finished, my uber was waiting around the corner for me and my aunt was parked right outside. I don’t get along very well with my aunt that’s why I could never go with my mom to visit her, she despises me. I waved goodbye to my mom and gave Heidi a quick hug.