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ATHARV'S POV

" Nope. Not that one." She pouted and shoved the dress on my face and walked to the next piece of clothing. I groaned internally in irritation and grabbed her by wrist, pulling her closer till our face were only inches apart.

" You're testing my limits baby girl. Ugh, please just pick any damn dress and set me free from this shopping shit." I pecked her lips.

She made a face and then hide her face in my chest. "You're so mean Atharv. I want to wear something comfortable for today but you're not helping. Go away, I hate you." She whined.

I chuckled. "I love you too, sweetheart."

Normal. Act normal, just the way you used to be with her Atharv. She is really excited for having this day with me just like old good days. Don't ruin it.

I have her one last look, drinking the essence of her beautiful face and then shifted my attention towards the huge lining of clothes in shopping mart. I mentally pictured my Aroma with every single clothes until my eyes fell on something interesting. I quickly took it out and smiled before handing it to her and pushing her in the trail room.

I waited impatiently for her to come back and when she did, I couldn't help but jump into the times of our school's farewell where Madam was being outcasts by wearing casual denim and simple T-shirt when every girls else were in formal dresses. Well she was never the one to care about her looks. Indeed just another reason why I love her.

" This one's perfect." She pointed towards the white cotton shorts and pink hoodie on her body which made her look cute. Even with pale skin and vulnerable expression.

A burning pain ceased through my heart making me imagine all those scariness of loosing her. Why couldn't I have her, forever?

" I love you, baby. I love you so fucking much." I mumbled under my breath and sighed in helplessness. My love for her is also not enough to still the time she's slipping. And they say that love has every power to conquer all the hardships? Bullshit. That's all lie, a plain white lie. What's the worth of my love for her when I couldn't even save her?

I soon finished paying the cash and tucked her arms in mine and walked to the car.

" Now where would you want this servant to take you Ma'am?" I asked faking a British tone which came out horribly.

She giggled and lightly threw a punch on my shoulder.

I smiled and fixed my eyes on the windshield. It is strange, isn't it? That sometimes happiness seems like just a word?

She turned on the music player and she put her favourite one Direction's song on play. I rolled my eyes. She and her obsession with their songs. She started humming the lyrics and closed her eyes while leaning into the seat.

I cast her face a quick glance then sighed. Fuck, I couldn't. I couldn't act like everything's alright.

" I love you. You know right?" She whispered, tilting her head towards me.

I nodded, frowning. I wish you weren't. I wish we'd never met, so today it wouldn't hurt this much.

" And you?"

I chuckled. " I love you more then my life, Aroma. Words will never be enough to show how much I am in love with you."

" Let's go to beach." She spoke to which I nodded quietly and took a left turn.

As we reached the destination, I opened the side of her door and took her into my arms. She smiled brightly and wrapped her arms around my neck. My heart beats in content at her pure ecstatic smile making me remind how I used to carry her in my arms whenever we head to beach. She always loved when I carry her and I well I used to adore her face like a love sick puppy.

She beamed in happiness when I put her down and the warm sand came under the contact of bare feet. She grabbed my wrist in excitement and ran to the water.

" I love you Atharv but I love this free feeling of water under my feet more." She stuck her tongue out and twirled her toe in the wet sand.

I shook my head at her antiques and sat on the dry area of sand, pulling Aroma on my lap. She leaned her head on my shoulder and released a sharp breath.

Wrapping my arms around her petite waist, I looked at the never ending sea. Cool air currents ran past us, filling my nostrils with the sweet scent of her which made me relaxed.

" I have always dreamed of living in a beach house." She breathed out.

I hummed in response with my eyes still searching the end of this infinite water. Why couldn't our relationship be like this? A never ending one?

" Where I will woke up next to you and place a light kiss on your sleepy face then you will open your eyes and tickle me till I ran out of breath. After that I'll sit on the kitchen counter while admiring you cooking breakfast for us. Then...."

I placed a finger on her lips, shutting her words which were passing through my heart like a cold knife.

" P-Please don't...I don't want to think anything about our future which will never happen."

I struggled to get a breath of relief but every time I try, her words create a hoax in my mind of beautiful future wich I know will never exist. I clenched my eyes shut and felt the burning pain in me.

" Why life is so cruel with us, Atharv? I-I don't want to die, I want to live with you and feel loved."

I didn't replied a single word just interlocked our fingers as tears started blurring my vision.

" I-I want to live my life. There's so much to do...I want to travel, experience, laugh, play..Damnit, I don't.. I don't want to die. It-It feels scary to know that I don't have much time. I-I...." With that she burst out into tears and hide her face into my chest.

My heart went heavy under the weight of her own pain. It was as if I was feeling her suffocation. Her trembling sound of sobs itched my every nerve till it began unable for me to even breath. My fingers started shaking and at that moment I realized that what her pain was. I am only getting lost in the fear of loosing her but here her own life was betraying her. She didn't want to leave me, her parents, her own life but still she was helpless.

" You're parents are not home, right?"

She asked all of sudden in a throaty voice.

I looked down at her in confusion but nodded eventually.

" Take me to your home." She added.

I pursued my lips together and searched her face for some short of explanation but when all I got was her plain look, I decided to do what she said.

I unlocked the door of my room with her being still in my arms. I shut the door behind us and dropped her on the bed. I ran finger through my hairs and sat next to her.

" I've spoiled your mood, didn't I?"

She asked in a childish voice with a small frown casting her face.

I swallowed my saliva and shook my head.

" Will you do something for me?"

She questioned, scooting closer to me.

I nodded. Anything, I'll do any fucking single thing for you, baby.

" I want you, all of you." She murmured.

I raised my eyebrows in confusion when she stripped from her hoodie. Her cold fingers then moved to her back and she unclasped her bra which made her body naked.

I startled and quickly averted my eyes away from her. But after few seconds I felt her unbuttoning my shirt. "Don't stop me, Atharv. I want to feel you before I..."

I opened my eyes and cupped her face, forcing her tear filled eyes to look at me.

" I-I can't. You're health is not well."

" Will it ever be?" She laughed, painfully and placed a chaste kiss on my lips.

I tried to kiss her back but failed miserably. It was as if this is our goodbye: the end of our own story.

" P-Please...I want to give you something, something worth to remember. Make love to me Atharv, I want you to claim my body just like you've claimed my heart and soul."

She placed open mouthed kisses down my jaw and tried to pass a weak smile

I nodded with heavy heart and gently made her lie on her back. Hovering over her, I kissed her like there is no tomorrow. Her lips moved softly against mine till the salty taste of our tears burned on our taste bud.

As I thrust into her, as gently as I can, I felt our heart beating as one. We looked straight into each other's eye and for the first time, our tears even escaped as one which showed nothing but a crave to live our future together.

The shattering hope in our heart made our reality a bittersweet one from where pain is all we can feel. Even our love faded against the pain.

" I love you."

" I love you too."

***

She snuggled closer to me making my heart dance in softness. The feel of our bare skin touching each other was the feel I've planned to have all of my life but I never thought that our first time would be in such condition.

" I am famished." She whined, leaving a kiss on my chest.

Slipping into my sweatpants, I entered into the huge kitchen of my parents house. The chefs were all busy in preparing the food which I know will only get wasted because my so called mother and father didn't have enough time to even have a single meal with me.

" Leave." I blurted out and they all one by one left.

I took a deep breath and started preparing a lunch for Aroma. It isn't like I am pro at cooking but I know that she always love the food I made even if it tastes horrible.

" Wake up, baby girl."

She quickly sat and sniffle the air, playfully. I cracked a chuckle and offered her my T-shirt to wear. She rolled her eyes but wore it anyways and then gestured me to feed her.

" You're such a child." I teased, bringing the spoon near her mouth.

" But you love me." She winked.

I do.