Heal With Love

ATHARV'S POV

" I love you Aroma." I breathed out while placing a lingering kiss on her temple. She parted her eyelids slowly at my contact and passed a weak smile. My heart fluttered after watching her beautiful smile. I then took her IV connected hand in between my palm and brushed my fingers lightly over her skin.

" I-I love y..ou too." She spoke and let out a shaky breath. Her shuttering voice was enough for me to realize the reality of our situation. My girlfriend was admitted in the hospital, that hospital where she's already losing the fight for her life.

I swallowed a thick lump down my throat after having a clear look of her face which now was more pale then before, her eyes had already lost their shine and those lips had now dried, the black bags were already visible under her eyes and that delightful scent of her was now mixed with toxic scent of medicine. After all Cancer had finally done it's job.

Day by day she was slipping from my hand just like sand but still I couldn't do anything to save her. They say that love is never easy but is this fair move of a destiny to take everything back even if it just started? How I am going to watch the girl I love, on her death bed?

I was never the one to believe in love but then Aroma came into my life and made my heart to fall for her with that love which will never fade. She became my reason to smile. I loved her since we were sixteen, long before I know the meaning of love. We were young and reckless but the second we shared few words with each other, I knew that we are going to have a story of togetherness. She was the most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes upon but I never loved her appearance and why would I, when her heart was enough to make my heart beat a little faster? She came like a light in my darkness and accepted me wholeheartedly. I never knew that I can also be loved the way she did. But then maybe destiny had never planned to bond us till forever. In spite of our strong love, I know that she will be taken away from me in the arms of death.

The day she was diagnosed with cancer was at lest the day of hope that she will get better but now when I know that she has mere few weeks left, my emotions are numb. I had spent my life's four years with her. We'd shared smiles, tears, 'I love you's', pain, happiness, fear, ecstasy, peace in those four years. She had made my life worth living but now what?

" So lover boy is already here, huh?" A soft famine voice brought me back out of my trance. I tilted my head only to found doctor Jennifer entering through the door with a little smile touching her cheeks.

" Hey." I greeted her and turned my attention again towards my Angel who was brimming with joy at the presence of her mother. Yes, she was her mother who was much more stronger then me. Even though my love for her daughter was nothing compared to her but still she acted all calm to plaster a fake smile on her face only because Aroma don't like watching us sad over her.

" Mom this Atharv stinks. Please tell him to go and take a shower." She pouted and cracked a weak laugh. I shook my head at her little attempts to lift our mood.

It hurt, looking at her hurt. The pale and weak look of her was a constant reminder that she's soon going to leave me. I wish if I had chance to turn back everything to normal where we can dream of our future which held us together, forever.

" So? Deal with him after all you love him." Aunt Jennifer laughed and let out a shaky breath.

Lie. This all laughs, jokes, smiles, comments, everything is nothing but a lie in this moment. Aunt Jennifer is trying to cover up her emotions but her eyes were reflecting the pain of watching her daughter in her last days. But fuck, I couldn't act like everything's normal. The girl who made my heart happy is now breaking it. She's leaving, she's leaving somewhere with no return.

My chest contracted in suffocation and without a second thought, I rushed out of the room. My lips quivered in fear and tears begun threatening to fall. I couldn't take this anymore. I-I couldn't watch her dying. Part of my heart is dying everyday with her.

I stared out of the window. Everything seemed normal. People were walking across the footpath, cars were running on the road, tress were moving, birds were chirping but not for me. Nothing was normal for me. The girl who lives in my heart will be soon gone, forever. Why? Why this is happening with me, with us? Why we couldn't have our own forever till we grow old? I love her, more than my own life but still I couldn't do anything to save her life.

" Atharv, stop shutting yourself. You can share your mental turmoil with me, son."

Aunt Jennifer came and stood next to me.

Her face reflected kindness and that special love which I always craved from my mother. Truth to be told in these past years, I've felt more motherly love from her then from my real mother. Aroma had not only brought love into my life but she had also gave me the gift of the feel of having family. Her Father and mother treat me like their own son, something which my parents never did. But unfortunately this all is temporary. They were in my life just because I was part of their daughter's life and the second Aroma will fade into death, I know that I will never be able to share a word with them.

" Then stop acting as if everything's fine."

A small sigh escaped her lips and next we both sat on the bench in a itching silence. No words exchanged between us, nothing. It was just one of those moment when there's nothing left to talk about. We are soon going to loose the most precious jewel of our life. What else is left to talk about?

" Aroma is my daughter. I've given birth to her. You think that I don't feel anything?" She spoke.

I stood there, unable to say a word and with that I left.