Chapter 5

CARA POV:

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Why the hell did I reject him in the first place ?

If I had said yes to him when he asked me out first time , I wouldn't be rotting alone for two years For Fucking two Years!!

I am having so much fun with James. I thought that I can't be happy in any male's company after Luca but I was wrong. I am laughing so much after a long time and the laugh is not forced. It is real. I am real.

I look at James who is telling me his childhood stories of how he used to scare his neighbours off when he was thirteen while we are sitting in a restaurant and waiting for our dinner to arrive.

And do you know how he did it? Let me tell you by getting out of his house , naked. Yes naked . Oh damn , i laugh so hard that my stomach hurts.

"Stop it... People are looking at us like we are jokers." I breath out between my laughs.

He smirks at me and says smugly,

"I can be your Joker, you can be my Harley Quinn." and winking at me.

"Ohh... How cheesy. But so sorry I am allergic to cheese." I wave my hand off in a dismissing manner.

He sighs, heavily before replying

"Way to break a guy's heart." And makes a sad face.

I smile at him ,no doubt he is so funny and cute. He can make me laugh. But that kiss, that was something.

The way, he kissed me hard and rough, the way, his body was pressed against mine. I shiver at the thought, biting my lips. Damn, you are acting like a teenage girl.

"Stop it." I look at James, confused. His eyes are fixed on my lips.

"Stop biting your lips", he whispers and looks into my eyes. Lust, swarming in his eyes.

"Or what? " I challenge him. I don't know why but I feel so confident around him, I want to experience all the things which I used to do.

Because you want to get yourself hurt again.

I frown at that. I can't let anybody use me, ' But what if you use him and he uses you?' . That's acceptable . I smirk at that. But why am I feeling guilty? I am not doing anything wrong.

Yes you are. Remember ' Luca'.

But he fucking left me and never came back. That's it, I am so angry. I won't let him destroy my life anymore. I know deep down, I want him to come back but he didn't for five years so now why would he come back now.He can't--

"Earth to Cara!" I got cut out of my thoughts by James, snapping his finger in front of my eyes and looking at me with amusement.

"What were you thinking?" He asks me.

"Uh- nothing." He leans toward me from across the table, licking his lips. My eyes falls on his lips instantly.

"Maybe if you are thinking about round two of what we did back there, we can do it again. You know.." He whispers. I suck a deep breath, calming my racing heart down. Control yourself, you're a grown up woman.

After that, James leans back in his chair, probably knowing the effect he has on me and smirking at me.

Many men try to flirt with me , even say very dirty things but all I felt with them was, anger and I definitely had slapped some of them. But when James says things like this and looks at me with lust, it doesn't make me feel uncomfortable instead I feel giddy, longing for it.

Soon after that, dinner arrives. We don't say anything and enjoy our dinner silently. But I can feel the tension between us.

The sweet sweet tension. My hands are shaking slightly because he is looking at me without looking away. His eyes are fixed on my every moves only his hand are moving from which he is eating. I can't take it anymore.

I put my spoon down and look at him straight in his eyes. He looks at me with a mysterious glint in his eyes. He puts his spoon down also but still, his eyes fixed on me.

I gulp down my saliva, suddenly feeling my throat dry. He removes his wallet from his back pocket, put some dollars on the table and stands up.

I copy his action by also standing up. He comes toward me , putting his hand on the small part of my back guiding me out of the restaurant and towards the parking lot where my car has been parked.

I took out my key from my clutch when suddenly the key is snatched from hand and my body is pressed against the car door..

I look at James, who has his head tilt on one side, looking serious. I don't know how can he change so suddenly.

"If I take you against the car , do you think anybody will see us? " he asks me like he is asking about the weather.

"Yes!" I whisper, my heart picking up speed.

"Hmmmm..." He says, looking at me , then suddenly he pushes me against him, flush . I look up at him . He moves his hand behind me , i heard a click of the door being opened then i'm pushed in the backseat of the car.

He follows me in. He closes the door then turns around. His hand moves over my neck, fingers caressing my side.

He moves towards me bringing his face between my neck and shoulder and starts kissing my neck , I move my head aside to give him more access . His other hand snakes around my waist pulling me into him.

Unshamed moans escape my lips making him groan. His whole chest rumbling with it. The vibration of his chest, making me want to press myself against him. What is happening to me ? Why I am so attracted to him? I close my eyes.

I feel his head moving over my hair, sniffing me.

"I like how you smell.. Sweet torture." He says huskily over my ear then kissing it , biting my earlobe . I put my hands on his front, clenching the shirt material on my hands.

His lips move over to my jaws , tongue trailing over my skin , making me pant. His lips move over to my cheek then to my lips but not kissing, just hovering over there. I open my eyes to find him looking at me.

"Look at me. Look at who is kissing you now. Right here.. At the back of you car.." With that he crashes his lips on mine , his tongue trailing over my lips, asking permission. I give him fully to take me in the world of ecstasy which I had forgotten about long time ago.

I pull away to gulp down some air but his lips never leave me, they go again down my neck . We are lost in ourselves, not caring if anyone out there is seeing us..

As in cue, I see something flashes past outside the door. I jump back in surprised, my head bumping on the roof of the car.

"Ouch!" I yelp. James looks back at me.

"What happened?" He asks me worriedly.

"Uh-nothing , umm I think I see something out there...." I tell him, trailing off. He looks at my face then outside the window. He puts his hand on the door and opens it ,moving out.

I move behind him, looking around. Everything is quiet here. I think It was just hallucination. I shook my head.

"I think, it was nothing. I was just being paranoid. " I tell him but don't get any reply.

I turn my head toward him, to find him stiff with a blank face. Is he alright? Did he see anything?

" Hey. You alright?" I ask, putting my hand on his arm. He suddenly turns his head towards me like I have pulled him away from a daze. He blinks his eyes before replying,

"Yeah.. Yeah.. I'm fine. I think we should go now. It is getting late." He says. Okay, that's weird.

First, he was all over me like there is no tomorrow. Now, he wants to go because it's getting late? Wow just wow.

I shake my head with a frown on my face and get into the driver seat after taking keys from him. After a moment , he also joins me by sitting in the passenger seat.

I start the engine, driving out to drop him at his home. He is awfully quiet the whole ride,usually he is the one talking all the time.

Okay now you see where this got you? He kissed and now he is running away.

A sour taste fills my mouth . I want to curse every known and unknown profanities at him and at myself also. I clench the steering wheel tightly, speeding up to get this guy off my car as soon as possible.

I was tempted to leave him in the middle of the road but then I remembered he works with me , if I do anything like that karma will bite me back.

Soon we reach his house, it is a quite big modern house. No doubt , my company pays its' employees well. He doesn't move out of the car.

How much I want to shove him out but i restrain myself. I know he can feel the fury rolling off me.

He sighs before saying,

"Look I'm sorry , I behave very weirdly back there and instead of apologizing I act like an idiot and award you with my silence- " My eyes narrow down at him.

"- but sorry for behaving like an idiot , don't feel negative about me I really like you-" my eyes widen at that. What the fuckitity..

"- yeah I really really like you.. And I had lied to you when I said that nothing permanent but i want to make it like forever. I don't care if you reject me because I'm not going to stop following you and I do have some stalker tendencies and going to bug you until you accept me. " he completed in a single breath then takes a deep breath and looking at me , expectantly.

I am speechless . Speechless will be an understatement of how out of words I am now. He likes me? Like seriously? And going to stalk me?

Then someone whispers inside my head.

Maybe he is the one coming into your room at night, Caralita. My eyes widen at that thought but in fear now. I panic but how is that possible?

Remember the reason why I am out in the first place because I had thought today that maybe I am attention deprived and making things up. I sigh again in relief , yeahh... Silly me..

"Umm-- I don't know what to say." I reply , honestly.

"Ohh.I'm so stupid. You can take your time, you know." He smiles at me , gets out of the car and turns towards me .

He leans back down again and kisses my lips suddenly before pulling away. It was short and passionate. I smile at his back as he walks towards his house.

May be, it can be a new start for me ?

Just maybe.

With that , I head over my home.

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I walk straight toward my bed and fall face down on my bed after taking off my shoes.

I don't even bother of changing my clothes or even opening the lights. Which I realised, is my very big mistake as I sense someone else's presence in my room.

I hold in my breath, not wanting to make any move. How I know , that somebody is here? I don't even see that but I know there is someone.

I can sense it. Am I being really paranoid? Am I having hallucinations? No , I am fine. Then who's there?

Is it really James ? No it can't be him. Maybe Luca Lombardo ? but why will he hide .. How I want to roll my eyes at myself but I don't even dare to move an inch. I am scared..

Should I make a run towards the door? What if the person is already standing at the door because everyone runs towards the door, don't they? Ohh God! Please help me.

Please help me Dad, mom, grandma I am scared.