Chapter 7 - Promise

Rose Hastington

Speechless.

That's the right word to describe me right now, Max stayed here. No matter how hard I tried to push him away, he still stayed.

I know this is just one of his way to get me back so I froze my heart to preventing him from hurting me again. I hate this kind of feelings, he'll just play with me again and again.

I don't know what on his mind until he came here to UK because he annoyed me. I wanted to kick him out from my place so bad.

"What is your purpose to come here Max? I'm tired and stressing out lately so please don't add it." I sighed.

"I have to make sure." He said and I looked at him disbelief.

"Make sure of what? I'm 25. I don't need a baby sitter asshole." I glared at him.

"How many times do I have to tell you that you're mine, Rose?" He hissed and I scoffed. He always said that but in the end of the day he will be with someone else.

"Yours? You never claim me as yours Max even I almost got married to Austin." I said coldly.

"We have been like this for 11 years. How many times do I have to repeat it? You're mine and I'm yours, we talked about this Rose.”

"Marry me then, you said I'm yours so marry me.. you wouldn't-"

"Let's get married." I looked at him and laughed sarcasticly, I walked out from the kitchen and walked towards the living room.

"I'm thinking about marrying Austin for real after I'm done recovering myself here, don't ruin it Max. I beg you, I never want anything for you so I beg you to not ruin this for me." I turned to him and he didn’t say anything. His eyes locked to mine.

"You don't like him."

"I can try to learn to love him, he's a really caring and loving guy. I'll love him for sure, I can guarantee that." I choked a little bit.

"I'm a selfish guy Rose, you know me so well so don't even think that I will stand still seeing you at the church marrying someone else." He said coldly and shot me with his cold eyes.

"I'm tried loving Max, I want to be loved and you can't give me that." I sighed.

"You begged like this because you saw Aaron, Sky and Alex settle down and you want me to settle down with you right? I'm not them, Rose!" He bursted.

"Then go.. I'm not asking you to be with me asshole. I'm asking you to go away and I'm letting you go. Who says I'm going to force you to get married with me or asking you to settle down? I’m going to start my new chapter of life without you in it. I’m tired." Tears began to fill my eyes. My heart was in so much pain. I really hate this guy from cutting my heart again and again.

"Rose loo-"

"I already forgive you a thousand times for being with another woman Max, I have my own limit and my heart broke every time I saw you with someone else. Enough hurting me please, I deserve to be happy. You always happy for the pass 11 years and I'm the one who is suffering here. Until when you want me to suffer? I waited for you for a really long time but seeing you don’t want this, what’s the point of waiting? I will have no future with you." I said as I tried to hold back my tears so badly.

"Okay." He suddenly said and I looked into his blue eyes.

"Go back to New York, I'll see you at my wedding." I said not wanting to see him again.

"Do you know that I'm not going to stop Rose?" I sighed as he said that.

"Let's just be happy with our own path Max, we hurt each other too much. You'll be happy without me." I said.

"Do you remember about your promise Rose?" I remembered, how can I forgot? The promise that we won't leave each other no matter what. We made that promise on my backyard when we watched the stars at night.

"I wasn't mature at that time, I was crazily falling in love with you.”

"We swore to each other Rose, do you know what I wish that day when we saw the shooting star?" He asked and I shook my head.

"I don't want to know, please.”

"Let's see how the future and God decide our fate Rose, cause I know you'll always be mine. How many times you want to runaway, you'll always comeback to me and vice versa.”

"Fate is not on our side Max, admit it.”

"You know what Rose? You know my feelings better than anyone else but it's you who never understand."

"Just go away Max." I turned my body away from him.

"I'll be waiting for you in New York, can you promise me to contact me first when you got there?" He asked and I sighed. I can’t believe he asked that when I’m cleary want to push him away from me.

"There will no Max and Rose anymore." I said.

"I'll be waiting for you Rose." I ignored him and I heard the door close. He’s gone.

I must accept the fact that me and Max are not meant to be together, I need to learn to accept that.

Max's mother left him and his dad when he was 6, his dad was completely ruined. Max saw how his dad suffer from that pain and he killed himself when Max turned 8. Max was broken to see his parents and he doesn't want that scene to repeat in his life. He doesn't want to commit because he knew if he believes in love he will end up like his dad.

He never know what love is until he met the boys, they went through a lot together so that's why Max cherish them so bad. He's close to Alex the most because they both share the same pain about their childhood.

I understand why Max doesn’t want this but playing with my heart on and off for 11 years is too much. This has to stop or else it will hurt us both.

I don't know why I even love him in the first place?

How about I'll just marry Austin? For real this time, I won't runaway again.