07

I wake up with an odd feeling in my gut an unwanted feeling. I can't explain it but it's as if something bad is going to happen. My thoughts begin to drift to my horrid mate, but I would've known, I would've gotten a sign somehow.

"No you wouldn't have, you know when he comes it'll be a surprise. He'll attack when you least expect it.' My wolf points out.

"Will you know?' I ask my wolf nervously.

"No, I don't communicate with his wolf and his wolf doesn't try, thankfully.' My wolf snarls in disgust at the mention of our mate.

I don't say anything else, I just wander into my bathroom. I look at my wild blonde hair in the mirror and cringe internally. My dark brown eyes are flooded with emotions but only one stands out fear.

I walk away from my reflection and hop into the warm, relaxing shower. I let the hot water hit my back and enjoy the little sting of pain as the water scorches my skin. I let out a soft sigh as I allow my mind to wander to the "killer' my mate. I know his stack will be surprised and at the time my pack and I least expect it. What makes my bones shrill is the fact that he really does has the power to destroy my pack. If he brought enough of his warriors he could easily take mine out. The sad thing is-is that this fight has nothing to do with strength, it has everything to do with being lethal and wise, and unfortunately my mate is far more wise and lethal than I am, and it could mean that this game we are playing has me already defeated.

After my long and thoughtful shower, I get out and dry my body off before throwing on my undergarments and a pair of black leggings and a black "'Nike' sweatshirt. I let my hair air dry so that it will be wavy and not frizzy. I don't bother with makeup because I don't really need to impress anyone.

I sulk out of my bedroom only to crash into a rock-hard chest. I mentally face-palm myself for not paying attention to where I was going.

"That's what you get for sulking.' My wolf snickered.

I mentally flip her off causing her to sulk away and growl in annoyance.

"Ow." I rub my head as pain over floods me.

A deep chuckle escape the rock-hard chest. I look up to see Rowan standing with an amused look on his face. "Rowan what are you doing here?" I ask a little bit more harsher than intended. To be honest I would be lying if I said I was glad to see him, he is the second-to-last person I want to see.

Rowan didn't seem phased by my rudeness and simply shrugged. "I was bored and you were here."

I roll my eyes at his nonchalance. Yeah, nice Rowan. It's totally normal that you nearly kissed me and pulled some moves on me yesterday and than became angry. Totally normal.

"Can you be bored somewhere else?" I ask in an annoyed tone.

Rowan's attitude suddenly changes and he's glaring at me. "Don't be like this because of last night Maddison."

I am taken back by the use of my full-name. Rowan rarely ever calls me "Maddison', it's usually "Maddi cat' or "Madelyn'

"What's with the sudden use of my full-name?" I ask daringly.

Rowan rolls his eyes at my question. "That's your name isn't it?"

I growl lowly at his disrespect towards me. "Watch it, I'm still your alpha."

"Yeah a pathetic one." Rowan growled under his breath.

I let a small gasp escape my lips. Never in all the years Rowan and I have been friends have me and Rowan gotten into a fight where he offended me. Why is he acting like this?

"Rowan what the hell is wrong with you?" I screech. I'm offended but more hurt than anything, I thought this boy was my best-friend.

Rowan sighs deeply before running a hand down his face. "Shit, Maddi I'm sorry, I've been having a rough day, I met my mate."

Totally forgetting the argument I allow my inner fan girl to escape and I allow a squeal to escape my mouth. "That's good?! Why are you angry about it?"

"My heart doesn't lie with her, and she is a major bitch." Rowan admitted in a small voice that reminded me of the tougher version of him.

"Rowan, this is your mate, you should be glad you found her." I explain softly.

"You're such a hypocrite." Rowan scoffs.

My eyes widen at this. "What?"

Rowan glares at me with so much disgust that it actually pierces a hole in my heart. "I know about your mate." He spits the word "mate' as if its poisonous.

My heart drops to the bottom of its cage. How did he find out? I know Alana would never speak of this to anyone.

"How did you find out?" I ask in shock.

Rowan snorts and rolls his eyes. "I overheard you and Alana. You're so hypercritical," Rowan averts his attention to me and leans in closer. "You really think you have the right to tell me to accept my mate when you haven't accepted yours?"

I stare at him in disbelief. He surely knows that the situations are different?! My mate is a killer?! The killer.

"My mate killed my father, what did yours do?" I snarl in disgust.

I watch him carefully as his eyes instantly soften. I stare at him with so much disgust that it makes me want to spit, that is until it finally snaps. I realize that Rowan must not of heart the full conversation. I can see the sympathy showering in his eyes which answers my hypothesis.

I sigh deeply as memories of my ruthless mate posses my mind for the millionth time today. I can picture him tearing into my fathers already tainted flesh, ripping away the life from my father. The memory will always be imprinted into my mind.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Rowan asks with hurt in his voice. I snap out of my trance and look up to see his green eyes seeping with sadness.

"It was hard enough for me to think about let alone say, the only reason k told Alana was because I had to, she's my cousin." I explain cautiously.

I can see more pain swell up on his eyes as he processes my words. "I thought I was like a brother to you, you told me everything before Alana." He whispers brokenly.

I make a move toward him but stop when he takes a step backward. Now it's my turn to feel hurt. I stare at him, allowing sadness to escape my body. I'm pretty sure the with the sadness combined between the two of us that it could be like heat that radiates from a thermostat.

"Don't act all hurt Maddison, you're the one who decided that I wasn't important enough to tell." Rowan sneers in anger and pain. I can understand his pain and anger but I had no intentions on purposely making him feel unworthy.

I turn away from him, he's right in a sense but I can't help believing that he is acting more dramatic than necessary. He knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life.