chapter 1

 I’m just a simple girl, I’ve never felt I was gorgeous, it didn’t upset me. I never cared what people thought of me. I work as a pharmacy sales rep for one of the biggest pharmaceutical companies. I don’t love my job, but it pays the bills.

My parents are way to controlling always trying to dictate my entire life, which irritates the hell out of me. They prefer me to find a husband, settle down and start a family. I’m not ready to do that just yet.

I have a boyfriend his name is Jake. He is wonderful. I’m just not ready for the next step. Even though he insists, I move in with him and become engaged. I can’t bring myself to do it. I enjoy having my own place with just my things. I don’t want to mix it up just yet I cherish my space.

As my alarm is going off, I look at the time 5:30 am, it is time to get up for work. I don’t choose to. I lay down and tell myself, “get your ass out of this bed.” You need to get going now or you will be late.

 So yeah, I get up and go get a shower to wake myself up. I get out of the shower to dry myself and blow dry my hair. I put it up in a ponytail then I get dressed. I’m not very good with fashion, so I slip whatever clothes on and run out the door, so I’m not late for work.

As I am going down the hallway, I realize there is a new neighbor moving in. Suddenly my eyes meet with his, I feel like I’m weak in my knees. He makes me wet in between my legs immediately. I can’t take my eyes off him, I’m in a trance. His eyes are so blue he has brown hair and tattoos down both arms too.

 I bite my lip, as I’m trying to handle myself while I stare at him. I don’t think I’m even capable to speak right now. It was like he was eye fucking me, and I love it. He then opens his mouth and begins talking, I’m not following the conversation.

 I crave him in so many ways, I freeze as he places his hand on my shoulder my body tingles. He is saying hello, he suddenly snaps his fingers in front of my face. I jump finally realizing he is trying to get my attention. I’m uncertain what to do, he’s standing right in front of me.

He then opens his mouth and says, “Are you okay?”

I’m stuttering on my words not being prepared to answer anything he is asking.

I just shake my head and run the fuck away from him. What the fuck just happened? I am mesmerized by him, imagining dirty things, I wish he would do to me.

Oh, son of a bitch, I missed the bus damn it.

I quickly call my boss to inform her I am going to be late, but I will be there as soon as I can. I wait for the later bus to arrive. It finally comes I get on the bus and head out to work.

When I get there Kendra, my boss is like, “What the fuck happened to you Jessica?” “You have never been late to work in the past 5 years that you have worked here.”

I look at her and apologize, “I became distracted by someone moving in my apartment building down the hallway from me.”

Kendra then says “Oh now did you?” smirking at me.

I smile at her and reply “Just drop it.”

“There is a lot of work that needs  to be accomplished today.” Meetings that are required to be scheduled before we leave today, so let’s get to work! ”

As I try my hardest to concentrate on work, all I continue seeing is my new neighbor. He has such beautiful sexy heart throbbing eyes. I struggle to just shake it off, but I have never been so flustered in my life. What the is hell is going on?

 I have a boyfriend; I need to call and see if Jake will come over and give me what I crave. I start texting Jake to see what he wants to do tonight. He responds, I will come over as long as it isn’t too late.

Kendra walks over and starts scolding me, “God you are so distracted today.”

I need you before quit time today to make certain all your calls are complete. They urgently have to be done today, no excuses understood? ”

I look at her and apologize yet again.

“Yes I will get all my work finished.”

I get finished up with everything around 8:30 pm. I text Jake “Hey I’m heading home now, if your ready to head over to my place?”  He then snaps at me, “Jessica it is to late, I’m not coming over but maybe tomorrow.”

I then respond, “Its only 8:30pm.”

He replies, “I’ll see you tomorrow, Jess.”

 I am so frustrated, I’m been desiring a release all day. I am so wet still, and I won’t be getting satisfied tonight, damn it!

 As I am going into my apartment building, I’m hoping my neighbor is out of sight. I am so embarrassed I can’t face him right now. Especially how turned on I am just by being around him, it makes me feel exhilarating.

 How can one man be so desirable?

He makes me feel like I’m needing to touch myself just to get through the day. As I continue to my apartment, I run and slam the door. I sigh in relief that he was not out. Having to see him right now would just not be helpful.

 I can’t even speak to him, what the fuck is wrong with me?

I go to my bedroom to get changed into my pajamas. I’m so glad that this day is about over. I hope when I wake up in the morning that all these insane feelings have passed.

Just as I go to lie in my bed, I hear a knock at the door. I’m wondering, who the hell is knocking at my door this late? I don’t have very many friends, maybe Jake changed his mind.

I get up to answer the door, I look out to catch a glimpse who it is. Oh my God it’s my neighbor!