Chapter 5.5 Defiance

Xavier Black's pov

Fear

The only feeling I want everyone to have for me.

You can call me a sadist because I truly like to cause people pain

It brings a kind of satisfaction to me and now I am addicted to it.

Those who face my wrath curse me from the depths of their heart.

But it dosen't matter to me.

Their words are nothing when I know that my birth itself was a curse.

I was not meant to be born

My birth itself was a curse which made me loose my mother.

She was supposed to live while I should have died in her womb but when moon goddess controls your arrival and demise we are just puppets in her hands.

It's not that my father dosen't love me.

No ,instead he is the only one who truly loves me but when I see him hold my mothers picture and cry for hours ,I can't help but hate myself for his pain.

Others hate me and I don't have a problem with that, because I also hate myself.

But,

Those beautifull blue eyes of my mate can't hate me.

I will not let them hate me.

I need her more than anything since the day I first saw her innocent blue eyes looking at me.

It was truly love at first sight, as cliche it sounds but this is true.

I was spellbound on seeing them

That was the first time I thought that moongoddess dosen't really curse me as she mated me with her.

But before I could see her face and mark her as  mine

She left

Just like the way she came

I could see her taking small steps away from me

Her eyes held worry and fear

While mine held love and care

Distance between us continued to increase and my only hope of having a mate continued to decrease.

I was too late,

She vanished before I could hold my angel again.

Leaving me devastated with her captivating blue eyes as the only trail.

She had no scent which was rare.

I didn't even feel those sparks which people say are felt on touching.

The only evidence which proved that she was my mate were those electric blue eyes which were rarest of rare.

I searched for her like a madman.

My majority of forces were assigned to search her .

To search those electric blue eyes

But it was as impossible as it sounded

I had lost my only hope in life

I lost my mate

Days passed

Her eyes still envaded my dreams

Her touch could still be sensed by me

But that was all

She was gone

I entered rosewood school to continue my training.

When I entered ,everyone bowed on recognising me

All the sounds died wherever I went.

This was the fear I was talking about.

And it really felt good

My Beta Eric made his way towards me.

Other than Dad he was the only one who feared me but still loved me and I

also trusted him blindly.

But trust comes when you know a person since birth and he has never ever deceived you in any way.

As we entered my first class everyone was standing looking down in respect and fear except one

That black haired girl was looking at me with a shocked look on her face .

She was so lost that she forgot to acknowledge my presence and look down in respect.

Her stare did not show defiance but delimma.

Her scent was weak ,so weak that I couldn't smell it among these powerfull auras.

She was a nobody based on her looks, aura and power.

But I was still fascinated by her more like intrigued.

She soon realised her disobedience but it was too late.

Accusing eyes were looking at her and she refused to meet them.

"She is the one I told you about"

Eric whispered in my ear

My eyes analysed her.

Slouching posture showing lack of confidence

Thin build showing her lack of strength

And lastly hyperactive movement of her hands showing nervousness.

I couldn't believe she defied Eric before.

He told me about her

Just because she was a girl he didn't kill her .

We all may be monsters but we don't harm women and children unless necessary.

Eric lacked self control unlike me and dealing with a defiant girl like her and teaching her how to respect royals required a lot of self control not to kill her.

Girls usually throw themselves at me , many have tried to change me, to teach me how to love but in the end I leave them broken just like me.

They forget that I am a monster who has no heart but could crush thousands of hearts without an ounce of remorse.

But she was different

Right now she is showing submission but is capable of being defiant as well.

Interesting.

I would love to see her defiance ,so that I could break it down.

She excited me just like a new toy excites a child and I wanted to play with it till it gets broken to be discarded into a bin.

Eric smirked knowing completely well what was going on in my mind.

He knew I will have fun  breaking her

I made my way towards her

She closed her eyes but I hated it

I wanted to see fear in them which she was trying to hide

"Move"

A single command made her jerk back with trembling legs

I wanted to laugh seeing her scared as sh** but I controlled myself.

I normally don't associate myself with lowlives like her but for a change I wanted to have some fun making her beg for forgiveness.

I threw all the things next to her and she instantly started picking them up

Naa this was no fun

I placed my heel on her hand making her freeze at her spot.

She made no sound unlike others who would have shouted 'ouch!!' a hundred times by now.

She was good at hiding her pain and I just liked my toy a lot more because of this.

Her teardrops landed on my polished shoes.

I felt a bit bad,just a bit

But I was surprised

Because I never felt bad

Hell I never felt bad after stepping on a pool of blood I created but felt bad for a few teardrops of her.

This was not good

I increased the pressure on her hand and her teardops increased

Silence stayed but her drops of pain flowed continuosly

After I felt content I lifted my foot

Before I could see the condition of her hand she stood up and covered her hand with the other hand.

During the entire class she stood next to me while everyone was sitting.

They kept turning around to see her but when their eyes met mine they would turn front agaon and continue to do their work.

She was feeling embarrassed and I wanted her to feel it

This was just the beginning and I knew I would enjoy playing with her emotions.

When class ended I stood up to leave

But not before giving her a advice

"Learn to bow next time"

I didn't even look at her to see her reaction ,instead I just walked passed her out of the class.

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