The sex club

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I was distracted.

And I felt guilty for it.

While Damien spoke to all the heads of the board, my eyes were glued to a particular woman.

She’d had my interest for a while.

Mainly because I was her boss, but never saw her.

But my stomach was clenched with guilt.

My love for Damien was always in the forefront of my mind.

So I returned my eyes to him.

I had no reason to pay attention so I let myself get lost.

Looking at his stance, his polished dress shoes, his dress pants tight around his quads and made his ass look amazing.

His biceps always strained in his dress shirts, and he’d always said the same of mine, but he also had the buttons of his shirt screaming at the broadness of his chest.

His hazel eyes roaming the room, his voice low and booming as he spoke.

His black hair was done like a more gorgeous Henry Cavil. And I was asking myself the same thing. How was that possible ?

I chewed my lip, my distraction not helping with the pain I felt.

Because no matter how many times I told myself no, I couldn’t help it.

And images flashed through my mind.

A pretty girls jaw in the grip of my hand, Damien whispering degrading words to her.

And it seemed impossibly right.

But it’s not just about me.

But he was my significant other, and I couldn’t keep things from him.

« Dismissed. » He shut the projector off.

« Come to my office Az. » He picked up his things, taking them with him as I stood, following him to his office which was only a few doors from mine.

« Your face is all twisted. Is something wrong ? » He asked.

I frowned.

This was literally break-up worthy.

And I couldn’t lose him.

But I can’t keep to myself.

« Yeah, something is. » I nodded.

I set my love for him aside, my desires in the forefront of my mind.

And if I kept them to myself, our relationship would be one sided and it’s not fair.

He shut the door, walking over to me.

He fixed strands of my hair.

« What’s the matter ? » He dragged his thumb down my lower lip, making my pants so much tighter.

« I- it’s serious. » I blinked and he paused, nodding skeptically.

« Break up material even. » I whispered, my tie, far too tight.

His face was washed with worry.

« No ! I’m not breaking up with you. » I shook my head and he sighed.

« God Az. Way to start a conversation. » He took a deep breath.

« I don’t want to keep anything from you. Ever. And I think this is the longest time I have. » I shoved my hands in my pockets.

He nodded, sitting in the chair behind him.

« I’ve been distracted lately. » I confessed.

« Because of ? » He asked.

« Women. » I met his gaze, my body on fire right now.

He smiled.

« That’s it ? »

« Kind of ? Not simply just staring. But I want them. » I tried explaining.

But we’ve been together for 5 years and this was a new feeling.

I’ve had thoughts but, nothing like this.

I wanted to have complete control over a woman, I want to watch him have complete control over one.

« As in… just sex ? Or a relationship ? » He tilted his head.

« A relationship. With you. And a woman. » I crossed my arms across my chest.

« What began the thoughts ? » He asked, oddly calm.

« Well, a girl in our meetings. Head of… I think it’s commercial. Don’t see her often. But I was… imagining things-« 

« Handsome, you’re gonna have to be more elaborate. I’m not angry at all. » He told me and that took so much weight off my shoulders.

« Well, I imagined her giving you head, and a lot more dirty things. I think the cause of this, is the fact that we can never completely dominate each other. It’s always a fight for dominance. So to fulfill both of our urges-« 

« You want a woman to be our little third. » He smirked.

I nodded, chewing on my cheek.

He never reacted how I expected.

« I feel the same. » He told me.

« Seriously ? » I gaped.

« You’re sexy as fuck Az, but we’re both big ass men, with very… interesting kinks that only a woman could really fulfill for us. But I don’t want a fuck. I want one. One to stay. » He stood back up.

« I agree. » I did not expect this.

« Good. » He kissed my lips so gently.

« So is that considered cheating ? » I asked.

« Nope. Not if I want to watch you pound a pretty girl too. Not just about me. And your thoughts weren’t just about you. We don’t want to replace each other, we want to add. » He hummed, his lips on my neck, his fingers hooked in my pockets.

« So you’re confident you’ll still want me if we get a girl ? » I teased.

His arms wrapped around my waist, his mouth leaving open kisses on me.

« Well, the right girl will love that we lust each other and the one I’m looking for will get turned on from us loving each other. If she’s greedy and wants all the attention on her, it’s an automatic no. Because as far as I’m concerned you’re my forever. » He kissed my lips and I hummed.

« I better be. » I smiled.

« Tonight, we need to go renew our membership. » He winked.

One last kiss.

« I wanted to go anyway. »