Chapter 2

***TRIGGER WARNING****

My day couldn't get any worst, I thought to myself as I exit the car. I took a deep breath trying to calm the fear that was swirling inside me. I heard approaching footsteps making me stiff, "Let's go" he said and wrapped his arms around my waist. I closed my eyes and put my head down in shame and walked along with him.

Justin Adams, the beta of our pack and my biggest tormentor. He is the guy your grandma praises for being a gentleman in such a generation and your friends drool over for being this handsome. If he wasn't the disgusting vile being,, then maybe... Maybe I would have been attracted to him too. Who doesn't want to be with a man with silky black hair, killer green eyes and drool worthy body?

If you think my family is bad think again. I was 15 when Justin who was 19 started showing me interest. For a child how was never shown love, it meant the world to me, I was finally revived and thought that maybe someone did really love me after all. So I started spending my time with him, I never even bothered that we'd be all close in private but act like strangers in public, it was my biggest mistake. He started touching me inappropriately in places I never wanted to be touched. Sometimes when we would just sit together on the bed talking or making out, his hands would slip inside my t-shirt or pants and he'd just be very rough with me. In his defense he said that when someone loves another, they do things like this all the time.1

When he said he loved me, I was over the moon. I threw all the doubts out of the window and did whatever he wanted me to do but he never went far from that.

But soon I started getting uncomfortable when he ask-- ordered me to strip for him or even lay naked beside him. I was horrified, every bone of my body wanted to repulse his touch. Things escalated on my 16th birthday when he offered to take my virginity.

When he said that I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in it and started throwing up, abhorrence had clogged my throat and I cried,, I cried till I was numb. He banged the door open and pulled me up to his chest. I can still feel his repugnant breath when he threatened to leak my nudes that he took when I was asleep beside him. I begged him on my knees to leave me alone,, I cried begging for mercy but I was shown none.

Having no other option I had to give him the only that I thought nobody could take from me, my dignity. A part of me me had died that day as I payed numb from the pain and humiliation after he was done with me. I hated how my body reacted to all the things he did to me,, I moaned his name, I moaned for more, I moaned for him. I was utterly disgusted but I loved him. Or so I thought I did, but his torment didn't just stop there. Even after taking my everything he wanted more, he wanted to have complete possession of me. Months after my birthday he became more possessive and violent, I still don't know why. Whenever he used to be in a sour mood, he'd come to my house, in my room and beat me untill I was black and blue. And my lovely parents know everything but never once helped me, even then I used to beg for their scraps of love.8

Everyday I could cry and beg to the moon goddess to end my misery. I'd spend hours in the shower telling myself to be strong, that things will end soon. It never did. It only got worst.

I was pulled closer to him, his breath fanning my ears, "And remember what we talked about. Don't. Ever. Look. At. Another. Man." He threatened and his grip on my waist tightened making a stray of tear leak out of my eyes. I nodded my head still with my head down. He grabbed him jaw in his hand and made me look into his eyes, "Words. Use words" he gritted his teeth, his eyes getting darker by seconds. Afraid of what he'll do here in a lonely parking lot, I kept my hand on his chest and caressed it, "I won't look at anyone but you" I said softly faking love in my eyes for him. He took a deep breath and put his head in my neck, taking in my scent. I felt so much of loath for myself for even doing this, I just wish I soon find my mate and he would take me away from these.. things.

"Good, remember that you're mine!" He growled making me close my eyes in defeat. I hummed and tried to push his off me, I could feel his excitement poking my stomach, I hated it. I don't wanna do anything with him, "Justin.. we're in public" I tried to reason but he kept on placing kisses on my shoulder, "Justin.. please.. not here..please!" The desperation could clearly be seen in my voice. I wanted to get away from him, even if it's for a few seconds.

"Fine, but I will come tonight" he said trying to be seductive but I could help but feel disgust. I gave him a fake smile and nodded, "Let's go, we don't want to upset the alphas" I said and walked fast to the private terminal.

I stood holding the card that said Mr. And Mrs. Schumach while Justin who was standing too close to me was holding another card that said with Mr and Mrs Smith. I was told that both these families are alphas and I must not in any circumstances probe the couples. As if I had no other business than that.

All of a sudden my wolf seemed to be on the edge. She is impatiently walking up and down. Werewolves cannot talk to their inner wolf, they can only feel the emotions they are feeling. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as my body started to tingle out of nowhere and my heart started to beat faster, "You okay there? Your heart is beating fast" Justin commented. I looked up to him and fake smiled, "Nothing just my wolf wanting to go out for a run" I lied effortlessly. We heard approaching foot steps, I looked at the narrow terminal with a poker face.

I got a big gush of the most mouth watering smell of vanilla and musk hit my face. Air was knocked out of my lung and filled with that smell. The smell was calling me out, tranquilizing me to follow it. The smell was coming closer making my wolf jump and howl in joy. Then the most handsome man to ever live came out of the terminal, I forgot how to breath as his slutry blue eyes looked deeply into my grey ones.

My eyes travelled to his form and a real smile made its way on my face. He is beautiful, soft wavy brown hair, the most alluring blue eyes with the perfect shaped lips that wasn't too thin rather inviting me to taste them. He seemed to be standing 6 feet tall, perfect for my 5'9. His polo shirt didn't do anything to hide his muscled chest and arms. He was muscular but not hunky, he had lean muscles.4

I was hypnotized, it was just me and him, the world around us had vanished into thin air. He slowly made his way towards me, not taking his eyes off me even for a second. I was stunned, rooted to the ground,, waiting for him to get to me and pick me up and spin me around.

But all of that went in drain when a petit brunette came beside him and wrapped her arms around his waist. My heart crumbled when he broke the eye contact with me and looked lovingly at her and pecked her lips softly. My wolf growled in anger, wanting to tear her arms off her body for touching MY mate. I began shaking in anger and pain but I knew better than anyone how to fake my emotions.1

My wolf tried to scratch herself, just trying to harm herself. I kept my tears in bay, what did I ever do to deserve this?

That was the only question swirling in my head.

The couple came to us all happy and in love making my heart tear into pieces even more, "We're Mr and Mrs Schumach" the brunette squeaked, I faked the millionth smile today, "Yes ma'am could you please come this way" I said and moved out of the way. I didn't dare look at him, knowing I would rather want to kill myself than to look at my mate who is already married. When they passed by me, I noticed that they didn't held each other's mark on their neck. But I didn't let that effect the situation.2

"I don't think making them wait is a good idea, you take them while I wait for the Smith's to arrive" Justin said and motioned me to go. I nodded and walked towards the direction where they went.

The urge to kill was so strong in me, I had gripped the steering wheel so tightly that my knuckles turned white. Her giggles, their constant kisses and him kissing her neck has driven me crazy. I felt my heart break every second I was around them, I almost threw up in my mouth when they delivered their love for each other. It was hard,, really hard for me to drive when I just wanted to crash this car and end my life. I could barely see through the blurry vision as I kept my tears at bay.2

But the moon goddess didn't just stop there, she had to rip my heart out.

"I am sorry if it's making you uncomfortable, we've just been married.. you know" the brunette said.

"No it's alright, all mates do that. And congratulations, Luna" I said robotically, knowing exactly what to say and how to say.3

She giggled, "I am so happy to have a mate like him. He is the most amazing person in the world" she said looking at him lovely. I mentally scowled, I don't wanna know that bitch. I said in my head trying hard to refrain myself from lashing on the alpha couple.4

I gave her a smile and quickly drive to the pack house.