||F o u r - L o u i s||

||Chapter Four||

[Louis]

To achieve.

You must believe.

This is my motto.

"Action!"

"Amy? Where are you love?" I started.

Sometimes like these, I hate acting.

"J-John! John help me. I'm here!" Amy aka Lily Collins screamed.

Did I mention how much I hate the name John?

Signing a contract for this movie was the biggest mistake of my life.

I ran outside of the house.

Following Amy's screams.

Oh shit, now this is the biggest mistake of my life.

Night.

Light.

No.

Breathlessness.

Trembling.

Dry mouth.

"Cut! Cut! Cut!" I screamed while rushing back inside.

"Zayn!"

Please not the panic attack, please.

I collapsed to the ground.

Holding my head between my two arms.

Searching for air.

"Lou! Calm down, there's nothing here calm down!" Zayn whispered in my ears.

He sat right next to me on the floor.

Holding me tightly.

Tears.

They had to arrive.

I'm so ashamed.

"Z-Zayn, Zayn, Zayn please." I begged for nothing in particular.

"Shh, Lou relax you're safe."

My best friend assured me and I'm trying to believe him.

"Everybody get out of here please!" Zayn yelled.

Confused mumbles could be heard.

Footsteps fading away as well.

"There once was a little sponge." Zayn started.

"It was called Sponge Bob Square Pants."

"It was yellow and it had big and wide blue sparkling eyes."

"Sponge bob used to love running during the day."

"Under the bright hot soothing Sun."

"With his pink best-star Patrick."

"They did what they loved the most."

"Picking on his green neighbor Squidward."

"All they wanted was the Sun in order to have fun and dream."

My panick attack soon stopped.

My breathing came back to normal.

I stopped crying.

"Sponge bob? Really Zayn?" I asked.

Looking up at my best friend.

I never felt so thankful.

"It worked didn't it?" He asked cheerfully.

Rolling my eyes.

I smiled at him nonetheless.

"Thank you Z."

"That's why I'm here." He shrugged.

"No, I mean it Zayn."

"Me too Louis. That's why I'm always here, to help you with this."

"Shut up!"

I chuckled.

"I'm so embarrassed and ashamed." I admitted.

"We'll find something reasonable to tell everyone, don't worry about it." He replied.

"Oh, so you mean my reason is stupid and not reasonable." I said, hurt.

"No! I didn't mean it like that Lou. I'm s-

"Whatever." I said.

Sometimes Zayn can be such a douchebag.

An hour later.

I'm home finally.

I can't stand the night when it's like that.

"Lou I'm honestly sorry. I really didn't mean it like that." Zayn started apologizing once again.

"You fucking know! You fucking know why Dominic left me!" I yelled at him.

"Yes I do and I was so stupid for saying that."

"I had to pay him two million dollars for his silence!" I continued.

"I despise the day I told him my secret."

"Worst day of my life."

"You what?!" Dom asked, surprised.

"Y-Yeah..." I mumbled.

"You can't be fucking serious!" He laughed out loud.

"S-Stop laughing." I muttered, hurt.

"You're telling me this is the reason why we never go out at night?" He questioned.

I nodded.

"This is the stupidest thing I have ever heard."

"Ha-ha oh my God!"

"You're pathetic."

"I am pathetic aren't I?"

"Dom was right."

"Don't try to object Zayn cause I am."

How am I supposed to achieve?

I don't even believe.

There goes my motto.

"Lou, it's not like you wanted this."

"Your past did this to you."

"It's just an after-effect." Zayn tried to sooth me.

"Which will stay with me forever." I sighed.

"I'm cursed."

"I'll never find anyone who will love me for who I am, when I'm like that."

"You will Lou. Stop being so pessimistic."

I just shook my head.

I can't.

After today's stupid panic attack.

After making a fool out of myself in front of everybody.

Nobody would look at me the same way again.

Maybe

I'll end up dating one of my fans.

Don't they love me no matter what?

P.S. I might sound stupid and desperate, that's cause I really am. I'm waiting for my prince charming. Wow, I watch too many movies don't I?

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Fin.