chap5

  Kate

Alex was really a man of his word. He danced with me pretty soon as well.

We had our first dance in his wedding. Yeah you heard it right, his wedding with my sister Emily.

I found that they started dating after my father’s party and after that they both fell in love, although Emily told me everything about her dates but she never told me about Alex and me as a fool keep living in my bubble where I start falling in love with Alex day by day.

Alex is the owner of a big IT firm so he used to have some business deals with my father's company . His frequent visits to our house were that one I treasured most some time.

Whenever he stopped by our home I used to make sure that i look presentable enough and but he used to give my a small node or if I catch him when he is finsint the meeting with my father and he smiles kindly and compliments me regarding my coffee and even compliments my new dress that i bought especially for him to see me in and also asked about books that I used to carry around.

But all this time he never came for me but for Emily.

And I who is self-claimed fool and stupid start to believe that Alex might like me and have interest in me. What a fool, how can I miss all those signs. How Emily used to be present in Dad's office an hour early before their meeting, how she started liking the tennis game and how Alex used to drop Emily after their tennis game. In the back of my mind I had doubts but shrugged it off knowing Emily wont marry for another three years as she once said herself also if she likes Alex then she would definitely tell me.

And she did but not because she likes him but that Alex proposed to her and she said yes.

Emily told me she doesn't tell me because she thinks it was not serious but with time Alex charm her and one day propose to her n she cant say no to him.

I was hurt that Emily never told me about Alex. I wish she did a little earlier then I could control my feelings for him and move on but now it's too late I just fall in love with him.

Now I'm green and watching my sister getting married with the love of my life but I smile when Emily Looks so happy and so beautiful. She passes me a look and waves at me happily . I waved back and promised myself that I love my sister more than anything so I will not act like an ungrateful and jealous sister here. After all, my love for Emily is bigger than anything even for Alex too. I can live in peace for life that my sister is happy and Alex will love her so much which is quite evident from the way he looks at her, like he can't live without her. He looks so proud and so in love .

I brace myself and shrug out all the thoughts and hug my sister so tightly.

‘I will miss you so much’ I touched her cheeks

Emily eyes got little misty ‘And i will miss you too so much...Oh god kate you are making me cry right now….So you are serious about moving’

Yeah about that

‘Yeah I will move out next week. I was putting this behind because of your wedding but now you are not living in this house so there is no reason for me to stay behind. I'm sure for the first time dad would be happy about my decision’ I laughed in a teasing manner

But she doesn't smile back ‘You know you can come live with us. I can talked to Alex I'm sure he won't mind’

No way. She isn't serious. But the way she is looking at me she looks so serious

I declined ‘no Emily. I can't and we won't discuss this again. I want to do something for myself. I cant let anyone consider me as a tolerance (She opens her mouth) I know I know you never treated me like this but I wont feel comfortable. Secondly I applied to some advertising and publishing firms and even got some savings I can manage for months. Don't worry. Now it's not time to worry about me. It’s your big day come one’

After the big celebration it was time for the speeches that we have to give to the married couple. Some were funny, some were emotional and some were trained for the memory lane but my father's speech changed the whole mood of the event.

' Emily my precious gem n my only daughter who has given me true happiness in my whole life .... when even I look to emily I forget all my worries , my mistake and my regrets that are still living with me .... she is the reason I can be called as proud father because she never disappoint me unlike some people'

I stop breathing and I can feel everybody gaze on me. I heard a snickering voice from my mother, friends and some society girls.

I was feeling so hot like some put hot lava on me. At that time my eyes can't stop my tears from falling down because not only my father embarrassed me in front of everyone but also considered me a regret that is still living with him and disappointment.

I decided I should go before people look at me.. I start feeling my hands to shake.Shit at the timing of getting a panic attack.

I run to the garden area to get some fresh air and try to breath loudly in order to stop my shivers. I don’t know how long I will stay there but after some time I heard some voices and one of them belonged to Alex.

' Man I can't believe you are married ...and what a catch dude hats off'.. his friend laugh while puffing a cigarette

Alex replied in anger ' watch your words Emily is my wife and I loved her truly'

His friend raised his hand in defence 'ok relax dude I was just saying.... by the way I was thinking why not Emily's younger sister... well you were talking with her first in Evans party' Alex replied

Alex laughed in disbelief ‘Are you serious? Kate is just a boring awkward little thing. Yeah she is pretty but honestly speaking she has zero confidence with zero respect ,can't you see how her father indirectly called her regret in front of everyone. I was embarrassed on her accord. I want my wife to be confidence, with some social standing and got a strong personality all these things belong to my beautiful emily these were the thing that I loved about emily and make me marry to her not a girl like kate who just blush and shy everything I say to her'

Ouch! It looks like my heart is broken into tiny tiny pieces after listening to Alex that he thinks about me in such a manner it truly kills me and makes me angry towards me that how can I think about Alex? How can he like something about me? I'm just a plain jane with no social standing

Damn my own father can't accept me as her daughter in public and private how can I think Alex will think some think differently.

I started shivering more badly...I kneeled down and breathed loudly...I touched my chest. Fuck. This hurt. Get normal kate right now. I can hear my mother's angry voice in my mind.

I feel someone was touching me. I look above it was Alex and his friend

‘fuck Alex ...whats happenign to her’ his friend yelled

Alex also kneels down and touches my face’ Hey Kate, look at me. You are ok?. Just take a deep breath’

I weakly looked at his beautiful grey eyes. There are so deep and peaceful eyes to get lost in.

‘she is having a panic attack dude…..do you think she heard us’

‘shawn will you keep your mouth shut she can hear us right now. Kate, can you walk? or should I call someone’

My eyes got big in fear. Shit if someone saw me in this condition, especially mother and father, they would put the blame on me for trying to ruin Emily's wedding.

I shook my head frantically ‘n...noo (i pointed at my purse) pil...pills

He looks a little confused and surprised. He opened my purse and took out my relaxant pills and gave them to me. I put it inside my mouth and closed my eyes to hide away from Alex's scrutinized eyes.

After five minutes I can feel a little ok. I was still breathing erratically but my heart beat was now a little steady.

I removed his hand and looked away in shame. Great now he thinks I'm a weirdo who has mental issues too. ‘Thanks im fine...Im sorry if i put you guys in distress’

Both of them pass me a wilderment look . I was too tired and exhausted to even understand their gaze meaning

Alex's friend Shawn came forward ‘No worries kate. I hope you are really fine.’

I passed him a small smile ‘yeah i'm fine, thanks once again. I should go now’ I took one step but was stop by Alex voice

‘Stop, Kate...Listen I don't know what you heard or not but please don't take this in the wrong way…’

I stopped him in mid way. I can't go through his fake apology ‘Alex, I'm tired can I go?’

He look tormented but he nodded,

Without saying anything further I walked slowly to my room.

At that moment I decided I will not make my father love me nor I will come between any affairs of Evans and Alex Robins .