Chapter 04

Sofia Castelli

I finish spraying my perfume as I apply my nude lipstick on my lips.

As I've changed over the years and become a cold and bitter person who doesn't expect anything pleasant from life anymore, I cover the bruises Luka left on my face, after our last discussion about Beatriz's marriage I ate I hate this man!

Cursed be the day this wretch came across me and fell in love with me.

After that day, my life became a real hell, the only happy moment I lived was when I met Gustavo, because it was love at first sight until Luka discovered and destroyed all this passion.

I never knew what he did to Gustavo, but I'm almost sure he killed him, ending him, Luka was always a nasty and cruel thief and did whatever was necessary when he wanted to get someone out of his way, and he didn't stop while my parents, gave me to him as a bride to become his wife and I ended up being forced to marry him. When he found out that I was pregnant with Beatriz, he freaked out saying that he would make me have an abortion, or as soon as she was born, he would put her in an orphanage, because he didn't want a child that wasn't his.

However, I insisted on it anyway if he tried to take my baby from me I would kill myself and that's when I managed to save my daughter from worse things.

I went through a lot of things at Luka's hands, because he tortured me in the worst possible ways, with aggression and mainly he raped me whenever he wanted against my will.

When he didn't leave me without food, or even 3 days without seeing my daughter, I put up with so much for her and I don't regret everything I went through!

Out of love for Beatriz, the fruit of the love of the man I love and will always love, but who was interrupted by this monster, I think: one day we will meet and finish what was interrupted, my love.

I'm taken out of my thoughts by Luka's annoying voice who is serious and with that dark look watching me, I looked at him through the mirror and continued ignoring him putting on my makeup.

— What do you think about so much?

I already have a few minutes calling you Sofia!

- A sarcastic smile appeared on my lips and I answered him staring at him.

'Is this serious?'

Now you want to control even my thoughts too?

It's not enough to take care of my life, my body, now you want to know what I think, it's really awesome!

He approaches me squeezing my chin and looking at me seriously he says.

'When will you understand?'

That you are mine!

Everything about you belongs to me, even your sigh.

—  I jerked his hand away from me and said with disgust.

- My thoughts!

Those you don't own, those are the only good things you'll never destroy, and even if I try to want to know what I'm thinking, I'd rather get beaten up.

He then slaps me and justifies himself running his hand through his beard in a possessed and nervous way.

"You, don't learn!"

Not even after so many years married to me, do you know not to challenge me.

I don't like to hurt you!

- He tries to caress my face then, holding his hand holding it away and I confessed acidly looking with disdain.

"No, I need your pity!"

Or compassion, or even from your love, I never wanted you Luka and it won't be now that it will be different, for you the only feeling that exists in my heart is disgust and hate.

I gave a mocking laugh as he looks at me sadly and confesses as if he's tired of fighting so much.

- It's no use!

I try you are always moving away from me, you never let me into your heart, I love you Sofia.

— My smile is bitter and I turn around still looking at her image through the mirror and I replied as I finished touching up my makeup.

"You will never enter!"

The only thing I feel is hate, and disgust like I said, I hate you for all the pain you've ever caused me and a reminder of that.

I'm still only alive Luka, because I love my daughters too much to leave them alone, if it weren't for them, I would have taken my own life and gotten rid of you!

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to call them to dinner.

I pass him heading towards the dining room, I want distance from this man the further the better, sometimes I don't know where I get the strength to face this daily.

If it weren't for my daughters, I would have already found a way to end everything once and for all!

I can't stand being an inch near him, I hate him when I got to the dining room my daughters are sitting there waiting for me, Delilah gives me a small smile while Beatriz remains silent, and with the thought, distant.

- Our!

She is beautiful as always mama...

- Thank you daughter!

— I give her a little kiss on the cheek and she gives me a small smile, then I see Luka sit down and say good night to everyone, I tell the waitress to serve dinner and we eat in silence without saying a word.

After a while everyone goes to their rooms, I went to my room and went to take a shower and as usual I use my tranquilizer to get to sleep.

I don't want Luka to touch me, I can't stand it, I know that soon he'll be here by my side, he must be smoking one of his smelly cigars, I lie down and soon sleep overcomes me and I enter the world of dreams where I find my dear Gustavo and run to towards your arms and I'm happy for a few hours of sleep.

I don't know for sure how many hours I slept, but from what I can see Luka is already up great!

Just not seeing his face in the morning makes my day wonderful and radiant, I hope he gets shot in these business, filthy that practices and dies bleeding like a filthy pig that he is, but I'm already figuring out a way to get myself Get rid of this demon once and for all.

Today I'm going to meet my contact who told me there's a possibility Gustavo is alive and that cheered me up a lot.

I took my shower and dressed discreetly, and went downstairs for coffee!

Cecília gives me a smile and greets me with a good morning, she's become a great friend since I married this filth.

She hates him despite being trustworthy, Cecilia told me that Luka killed her son, she infiltrated all these years just to get revenge on him, so she said she would help me and since then we've been in this together until the end.

- Good Morning!

Did you sleep well?

She looks great, with a serene and relaxed countenance.

- Yes I am fine!

I had a wonderful dream.

I'd forgotten about Cecília, today we're going to the fair, right?

She nods and takes her basket.

— That's right, ma'am!

We're also going to the spice store, I need to replace the spices.

I'm glad to think that I'm going to get out of this house for a while, this place, but it looks like a prison surrounded by so many security guards, I'm glad at least luka's shopping lets me do it and go with cecília.

— Oh!

Yes, it's true, to hear the cook say that she doesn't have any more pepper or the spices of seasonings that she usually uses.

— the guard next door is attentive to everything I say, or rather, the guard dog of that rogue.

We got out in my car and the security guard right behind, giving all the instructions of my steps to Luka. shop woman I see exactly when the woman discreetly passes you a red bottle!

It must be the poison that Cecília told me about, we have to be discreet and cautious.

She pays the woman and we leave there smiling, soon I'll take revenge for everything that bastard did to me, sending this poor guy to the fifth of hell!

In the car, Cecilia starts to drive and gives a small smile before she speaks up.

'It's just a question!'

Once a child, soon all her suffering will end.

We will put an end to this demon and just be patient!

- I wiped an emotional tear and said looking at her.

- Thanks!

For everything Cecília, you became the mother I never had.

How many times do I owe you?

It no longer saved me from having died, or helped me with my injuries.

I wipe away the tears that insist on falling, remembering certain things I've passed through Luka's hands.

Cecilia gives me a small smile commenting.

— Don't cry child, Luka will pay for all the suffering he's already caused you!

I swear even if this is the last thing I do, I will take revenge for my son and for you who every time he was beaten, I hate it when he attacks you or violates you that only makes my hate grow... — just remembering it I feel my blood boil.

- Mine too!

But tell me what that red bottle is for?

"It's a kind of poison!"

That kill slowly without leaving a trace, I will use in drinks and in your food and in your breakfast in the morning, the good thing about this poison and that it has no taste at all in a few months he will have a malignant cancer like leukemia.

A hopeful smile crept onto my lips.

- That's great!

After Luka dies I can leave this place and I'll take you with me Ceci.

- I'll be grateful child!

Now we need to act, discreetly I will order lunch.

- Knife!

Grilled chicken with potatoes and rice and pumpkin puree this wretch loves it.

Cecilia laughs and comments.

"You command and I obey!"

We have a nice laugh of complicity, I love Ceci and my daughters too.

When I say that she became a mother to me, and why she always protected me like a mother, because my mother never cared much for me!

He was always in favor of my marriage to Luka, even though he knew I was in love with Gustavo, however, he preferred to give me to Luka because he was rich and not to (Gustavo) who was poor, just thinking about getting rid of him makes me feel a thread of hope forms in my heart.

The possibility of having a new life and without him in my way fill my heart with joy, because only then will I be able to go after my love and live my happily ever after!

Going back to where it all started, I just hope Gustavo doesn't have anyone and remains single waiting for me!