Find My Love Again...

Josey's POV

I remember the day Percival broke Sabrina's heart like it was yesterday.

He stood up there, on that podium back at The Blue Woods Pack and declared his love for a girl we considered family... Not one time did the alpha and his family think to tell us before announcing to the world how their son had decided to be with a chosen mate over his fated, especially since both my family and Percy's family were close... with us being a beta family and all, sparing Sabrina the embarrassment.

No, they shocked us all, just as everyone else was.

Even though Sabrina may not have noticed it, the pack was enraged. She may have felt their pity but it was more than that. She forgot how we all obeyed sacred law and everyone knew she was fated to Percy... it was no secret... we all knew she was only waiting for the right age to become his mate and take up her place as luna.

I wanted him dead. I wanted to end Percy and his family for even thinking they could pull such a stunt on my sister. That was the day I questioned why we had to hide our power, why we could not fight that family for power and overthrow them. They deserved that and more... I would have done anything for my sister.

Since then, I have followed Sabrina around, in support of her. I would do it over and over again because I love her and luckily in our little road trips or as I would call it, heartbreak runaways, I met my two handsome mates. I would have never met them at that exact time had I not followed Sabrina off to Max's pack...

The fact that I am some demi god was already hard for them to accept but me becoming a vamp? Total dealbreaker and I can't stay in a relationship where I felt unwanted..... and luckily I left because now,...

"Now you have me." Cayden says to me, hugging me from behind.

I feel my body melt under his hold... boy better hold on to me because I am mush right now.

"Taking a human turned out to be the best idea actually. I mean now I can totally harness my power and begin the work of creating monsters that will follow us." Cayden says. his mouth moving on my ear. It was like he was taunting me, trying to arouse me. Either that or he was completely unaware of the effect he has had on me from the minute I met him.

Cayden, just as he was then, he is now.

He walks in to a room and commands it... being king is one of the things he was made for besides being a sex god. I just have to be careful and protect my thoughts before he grows an even bigger head.

"You.. you want to start biting humans already?" I ask, my breathing a little hitched from being so close to Cayden and feeling the heat emanating from his body. I had to force the words out of my mouth and they did not come out the way I intended. Now he should be fully aware of the power he has over me.

"Oh my beautiful queen! We have a world to take over and as much as I love your sister, I know feeding on her little gods will upset her and I actually believe she will end me. She has the power to do so, I should know... I will never underestimate the moon goddess again." He says and I chuckle nervously. Sabrina brought Cayden back as a gift to me, to find my happiness and it was my job to keep him in line and make sure he is not being the monster he once was.

"Anyways, how can I be the vampire king without my people to follow me and to bring me food? I am not made for hard labor my love.. as much as I love the hunt, sometimes I would like to wake up to servants offering themselves for my pleasure." Cayden says to me.

"We can leave now if you'd like." I say as I pull away from sex on legs and create some distance between us. The fog in my brain clears from decades of no sex and I am back to myself. I will not become weak on my first sighting of a sexy vampire king and if anybody is going to be preyed upon, it is him.

I am the animal after all.

"Not before I say a few words to you." He says to me.

Cayden clears his throat and his face turns from playful to serious.

I get a whiff of his nerves and they are shot but he hides it as quick as it came.

"Josey, I was not good to you in the beginning. I was consumed with anger and the need to avenge my mother or more for myself.. for the curse bestowed upon me. Many don't understand that a normal life was taken away from me, I have been a monster all my life... it is all I have known but I have yearned for a different life, mostly when my mother's people shunned me or when I was bullied for being different by kids my age, kids I had so desperately wanted to befriend. I know I lost the game when I became the very thing they called me since I was born but I was so tired of not fighting back and just allowing the abuse to continue. Anyway, I had the chance to view your life during my vacation time away from you... You went through a lot. Even in my death I caused you so much pain and I just want to apologize for that." Cayden says, clearing his throat once again with tears in his eyes.

"I got to watch what you and your family go through on a daily basis and I must say, we have both suffered enough. I don't want to lose you again. I want to create a world with you by my side, a world that we both want. I want to hear your dreams for the future and how many babies you want because I am definitely giving you some. I want to make you are a happy woman and make sure your twin mates never see you again.. well, unless you give me the go ahead in killing them, which I doubt you would, I will try my best in keeping you happy and pregnant. With all of that said, which I hope you know I am serious about, please give me a chance to be a better man for you and only you. I believe you were made for me.. and I for you. The people we held dear saw us as monsters but here we are together, stronger and much more powerful and I know we can do this life thing together." Cayden says to me.

Cayden had managed to prevent the tears from coming out and I would have loved a tear show to go with his sweet words plus apology but I will take what I can get. The vampire king with no kingdom still would not have said any of this... I mean from a man with multiple fuck buddies to just wanting to be with me and asking for it? He has come a long way. Truth be told, I was going to give him a chance anyway because he is the man my body was yearning for, calling out for but there is just this gnawing in the back of my mind... what my family has said about possibly having a mate in this realm....

What if I do? What if there is a boy born on the same day as me and waiting for me somewhere around here? What if he makes himself known just as I am about to start a life with the man my heart has wanted for the longest time even in his death? The love thing has never come so easily for me and with that possibility looming in the air, consider me officially doomed.

Call the priest because I need some prayers!