CHAPTER 2.1

Ronan is panting and shaking from all the fear inside of him.

He didn’t ask for this. He didn’t want this. He never wanted someone to be involved with his miserable self like this. He never wanted to ruin his friendship with anyone like this.

“You didn’t tell me that you’re an Omega.”

Forth is his friend—WAS his friend—until what happened has already happened. The fear inside him is still strong and he couldn’t look at Forth the same way. This guy assaulted him and even if it was his Heat’s fault… The flashes of how Forth looked at him remains vividly in his mind and he can’t remove it.

He has never seen someone like that—someone who terribly wants to have him, to own him. Forth’s eyes told him everything and that what scared him the most. He saw how much he wanted to take him. The images of him trying to do the things he could even imagine keeps playing in his mind like a broken record.

Nothing happened. They didn’t have sex. But the moments that they “almost” …

He kept chanting in his mind that it was also Forth who saved him, who saved them both. He was the one who gave him the shot. He was able to control himself and not continue on with what was about to happen. He wanted to have all the reasons not to feel this fear of Forth but the images of how he looked at him are something really more traumatizing and stronger than his need to forgive Forth.

Forth laughs sarcastically and wipes the side of his mouth. The blood from the wound that he caused by biting this guy’s lip is dripping down to his neck. “It is the most vital thing you need to tell your friends, Ronan, or did you forget that I’m your fucking friend and a fucking Alpha? How can you not fucking tell me that you’re an Omega?!”

He flinched by the way he shouted. He wanted to answer him, to tell him why he decided not to tell him. He wanted to, but he fucking can’t even do it. Instead, what escaped his mouth was: “you do know that by now our friendship is over, right?”

Forth laughs again and this time, he shivered upon hearing it. “Now you’re telling me what? That this friendship is over? Bullshit!”

“Being Alpha is not an excuse to assault anyone, Forth. You fucking disgust me!” Ronan doesn’t even know anymore where he is getting all his strength to have this argument with Forth, but here he is—telling these things that he didn’t even mean.

Forth didn’t do anything. Forth didn’t do anything. Forth didn’t do anything.

He wanted to own you.

“Is that what you really think of me, Ronan?” Another laugh escapes from Forth. “Well then…”

Forth starts walking to him and he started shaking more violently again. He thought Forth would touch him again but he didn’t. He just levels his face to his and grins like a complete evil.

“Let’s make a dare, Ronan. Let’s never see each other again because he if we do…” He looks at him—looks at his entirety. “Trust me, you don’t want to ever see me again since that’s what you want.”

“Asshole.”

* * * * * * * * * *

“What do you want?”

It was too late for Ronan to regain his control over himself. His Heat is already burning him to the core and even if he loathes this very man in front of him—the Omega inside him is already hurting him as he continues on with his idea of rejection to this Alpha.

Every cell inside his body is screaming and begging him to let this man fuck him. He wants this man now and it’s literally hurting him.

A dangerous grin curves onto this man’s lips. “Kneel.”

He wanted to punch him real hard but it would cause him his death at this point.

With all the self-hatred and might that he has remaining, he kneeled in front of this Alpha.

That grin turned into an evil laugh. A moan almost escaped his mouth when this man grabs his chin. He wanted to push him away but with just that simple touch, it felt so good he wanted to cry even more and beg for it.

His touch burns more than his own Heat and he wants it. He wants more of it.

“Submission really suits you, doc. Now, say my name.”

After all the fucking years that have passed—this man is still the same asshole he once knew.

“F-Forth.”

* * * * * * * * * *

In every text book and every sex education session an Omega child can read and have, the most basic thing it teaches is about Heat suppressants and how important they are. An Omega’s Heat is natural and unavoidable. In the process of Heat, a male Omega’s body is preparing itself for pregnancy. It will hurt, really hurt, because it will feel like your own insides are on fire. That’s where the suppressants come in action. A synthetic yet the easiest way for an Omega to subdue his own Heat. A vital must-have with a law regulating it.

Yet those same text books and same sex education sessions will not tell anyone how an Omega can benefit more from having sex with an Alpha. It will never tell the satisfaction one can have with this energy-consuming intimacy. No one can really justify that fact except for the people who truly experienced it.

Like what’s happening right now…