No Roses Left to Burn

Seven years of marriage, and I had never once sat at a Marchetti family table.

Not on Christmas Eve. Not on Thanksgiving. Not on New Year's.

Every holiday, Luca left before sundown and came home the next morning with cigar smoke in his collar and wine on his breath — traces of a world I was never allowed to enter.

He always said it was tradition. Old blood. Sicilian rules passed down through generations: no outsiders at the family table. No exceptions. Not even for a wife who took the Marchetti name.

I believed him. Every single time.

Until the night before New Year's Eve, when he asked me to check the tire pressure on his Maserati, and I found three photographs wedged behind the owner's manual in the glovebox.

All three were taken in the Marchetti private dining hall — I recognized it from a picture his mother had shown me once. Vaulted stone ceilings, a mahogany table long enough to seat forty, and the family crest carved into the mantle above the fireplace.

In every photo, the same woman stood beside my husband.

Her arm through his. Her hip pressed to his side. His hand on the small of her back with the kind of ease that doesn't come from politeness.

It comes from habit.

I sat in the driver's seat until the steering wheel turned cold beneath my fingers.

There was no tradition. There was no rule.

The place beside Luca had simply been taken — by someone who wasn't me.

And he'd lied about it for seven years.

……

My phone lit up on the dashboard. His name.

How's the car? Come home — dinner's getting cold.

I typed On my way, slipped the photos into my coat, and started the engine.

The apartment smelled like rosemary and slow-braised lamb when I walked in. Luca leaned against the counter in a black henley, sleeves shoved to his elbows, scrolling his phone. He looked up and gave me that half-smile — the one I used to believe was mine alone.

"Nothing serious?"

"Nail in the rear tire. Already patched."

My voice came out even. Flat. I surprised myself.

I set the table the way I always did — his plate left, glass right, napkin folded once — and we sat down. I cut into the lamb I'd spent all afternoon making, chewed, swallowed.

Then I put my fork down.

"Tomorrow's New Year's Eve." I stared at my plate. "The dinner at your father's estate. Still no room for me?"

His jaw shifted — barely, the kind of thing you only catch after seven years of reading someone's face like scripture.

"Clara." Patient. Practiced. "We've been through this. My father's table, my father's rules. Blood only. You know how the old man is."

He reached across and laid his hand over mine. Warm. Heavy. The same hand I'd seen resting on another woman's waist in a photo taken three months ago.

"I wish I could bring you. You know that." A gentle squeeze. His thumb traced a slow circle on the inside of my wrist — that thing he always did when he wanted me to stop asking. It used to make my pulse jump. Tonight it made my stomach turn. "It's just one night. I'll be home before noon. We'll have the whole day."

Seven years of the same words. The same careful tone. The same squeeze to pin the lie in place.

I used to feel guilty sitting here — guilty for wanting more, for not being Sicilian enough, for pushing against something I thought was sacred.

Now I knew there was nothing sacred about it. Just a door he never meant to open for me.

"Fine." I slid my hand away. "Let's eat."

He studied me a moment too long. Something flickered behind his eyes — not guilt, exactly. More like a man checking whether a lock still held.

Then his phone buzzed, and the moment was gone.

After dinner he stood and reached for the plates — unusual. "Leave it. I got it tonight."

"Since when do you do dishes?"

He kissed the top of my head on his way past. "Since my wife made me the best lamb in Manhattan."

The kiss landed on my hair like a coin tossed at a stranger. I nodded. Didn't move.

I sat and listened to the water run, then got up and walked to his jacket on the back of the couch.

Seven years, and I had never once touched his phone. Never opened his wallet. Never tried the combination on the safe in his study.

I gave him every ounce of trust a wife could give — the kind that now sat behind my ribs like something swallowed wrong.

His screen lit up when I touched it. Locked.

I carried it to the kitchen doorway. He had his back to me, scrubbing a pan, water loud against steel.

I pressed the edge of the phone to the hand hanging at his side.

Unlocked.

In the living room I scrolled fast. Texts, calls, apps — most of it clean. Business. The digital surface of a man who kept his secrets behind one well-hidden door.

I found it under a contact labeled Firm — S. Valenti.

The messages were sparse. Weeks between each one.

No love letters. No desperation. Just the shorthand of two people who'd stopped needing to explain themselves to each other a long time ago.

Tomorrow? Same as always?

Yeah. Missed you.

Photo this year? Like we always do.

Of course.

The last message was from that afternoon. A photo attached.

I tapped it open.

The Marchetti dining hall. Luca and Sienna, shoulder to shoulder.

His arm circling her waist. Her head tipped toward him, dark hair spilling across his jacket, lips curved in the kind of smile that only lives between people who've touched each other a thousand times.

Timestamp: October. Columbus Day weekend — the one I spent alone in this apartment eating reheated soup, half-watching a movie, waiting for him to call from a gathering I believed I wasn't permitted to attend.

I kept scrolling. Christmas. Thanksgiving. Fourth of July. Every year, the same quiet exchange. A few words. A photo. Then nothing.

No explicit language. Nothing crude.

Just the effortless intimacy of two people who never had to try.

Seven years of holidays spent alone in this apartment.

Seven years of it's tradition and just one night and I'll make it up to you.

And the whole time, she was standing exactly where I should have been.

Not as a guest. Not as an outsider let in from the cold.

As his.

"What are you looking at?"

Luca's voice, right behind me.