Chapter 5

Fernanda

I myself can't believe that it's been two months since I separated from Otávio. It was like yesterday that everything I suffered and still suffer from being betrayed by the man who swore to love and protect me and all that is now behind me.

I just didn't break up and decided it was time to change my life literally. I ended up doing something I should have done some time ago, I got out of that hell I called a job and that's how my struggle began to find another assistant job and one thing I say was not easy.

Every job interview I knew one thing was not me who was going to get the job. As incredible as it seems nowadays, people only know how to look at one thing, their body. It didn't matter if you had a good track record of a good resume and if they thought you weren't good enough, i.e. skinny and hot then you weren't qualified for the job.

And now I'm out here waiting for the answer to the interview I had done and I wasn't there alone. There were more candidates and they all looked at each other as if this was a competition and maybe it was! Now as I had nothing to do and I go back to thinking about the past about how I changed and how everything changed after the separation.

The divorce hadn't come out yet and one thing I had already decided the house we lived in for my entire marriage would be my daughters' house. I could barely stand being in that room where Otávio and I spent the best nights of my life, or I thought it was.

And that same night as I got out of the shower and grabbed my stuff and everything that was mine and took it to the other room. And in that room I started a new life.

And the new life was for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and start appreciating the person I was. I had to see that I wasn't a bad person for having ended a marriage. Even though I still have the feeling that I should have done something and I didn't.

I had certain people, that is, friends in common with me and Otávio. That they thought I was to blame for him betraying me the only thing I did I defended myself and ended up walking away from them.

One thing I still don't understand is how people still think that we women should forgive betrayal and stay with our partner as if nothing happened.

And I'm snapped out of my thoughts when I hear my name. I get up and go to the room where I did the interview and when I get there, I find another girl and she says:

—Mrs. Freitas! Thank you, if you would like to have a seat, please! She says and I thank her. She waits for me to sit down and I get anxious there and at the same time I already imagined that that spot would not be mine.

And there I was listening to things and saying that my resume was very good and everything and it was silent and I was already getting nervous until she finally said:

—So Mrs. Freitas, as I was saying, her resume is very good! —She says and I agree I knew my resume was good and she continues talking: — I'm sorry the assistant position you were running for has already been filled and I appreciate her participation. She says and I thank her and leave.

Me instead of looking for a job like I should apply to be psychic. I leave the place where I did the interview and went straight to a cafeteria and ordered an orange juice and I take my cell phone and as soon as I call it comes several messages telling me that they called me and also messages from my daughters saying:

"Mom call us when you can!"

I call Kam and keep calling and she doesn't answer me and so I call Kathy and it keeps ringing until she answers:

"Hi Kathy, what's wrong?" – I ask worried.

"Mother, I'm so glad you called!"

— I saw the messages and missed calls and I didn't understand a thing! — I comment.

— They called here at home asking about you!

“Do you know who called? – I ask curiously.

— It was a company, let me ask Kam his name. - She says and I hear her screaming while the attendant brings me the juice and I put sweetener and I keep sipping slowly and until I hear my daughter's voice calling me.

— Hi Kam, Kathy told me they called me at home, do you know what this is about? – I ask curiously.

— Yes, it's true, a company called you, to do an interview! “She talks to me very cheerfully.

— I'm really happy, what's the name of the company? – I ask curiously and at the same time I'm afraid of not being able to pass another interview.

— Yes, I know the company that called you is called Amor Proibido and they also gave you the number, don't you want to write it down? — She tells me and I'm shocked that the biggest lingerie company in Brazil and also one of the most famous in the world were calling me for an interview!

- I want a daughter! I ask her as I pull a notebook and pen out of my bag. - You can speak, daughter!

While I listened to my daughter giving me the number and I was waiting, not knowing whether to call or not to schedule the interview.

"Mother wrote it down!" – Kam asks me.

— Yes, I wrote it down, I'll call you there! - Warning.

“That's right, mother! - She says.

— Daughter, I'm going to hang up and in a little while I'm going home! “I tell her and we say goodbye and I hang up and finish my juice.

And there I look at my cell phone and I decide to go on the internet and type the name of the company forbidden love and what appears several websites of the store and social networks and on the side was the photo of the founder and my “lady” of desperate women the guy was beautiful and just seeing this picture made me excited and I even sit in the chair better. And curiosity hit me a lot and soon I'm on the search engine reading all about him.

His name is Bruno Mendes twenty nine years old, he also lives in São Paulo and jesus beloved what eyes were those? What beard was that? This man is very hot, I think.

And I read more about him and I'm really surprised that he's had the company for about five years and he was new.

'Bruno, Bruno, you're a very handsome man!' — I confess, still looking at his pictures.

What caught my attention most about him is that he didn't have pictures with girlfriends. Is he gay? It would be a shame if it were! Fernanda controls herself woman! I think to myself. He's not for your pout. Men like him would never be interested in a woman like me!

"Would you like more juice?" the attendant asks me, snapping out of my dirty thoughts.

— Sorry, I accept and see me a piece of pie. — I ask and thank you and wait for the attendant to walk away and I go back to looking at the images of that hot CEO! Another thing that caught my attention was that besides wearing a sexy beard. It's not that he also wears glasses and making him hotter than he was.

— Here this lady! – The attendant speaks.

- Thanks! — I thank him and I eat and look fascinated and I also see that he also had facebook and I couldn't stand the curiosity and I went in and I could only see a few things and what shocked me the most is that he had a twin brother.

I finish eating right away and look at my diary and there was the phone number that my daughter had given me and I decide to take courage and say:

—Time to take courage, Fernanda! — I comment to myself.

I leave the search application and go to the dial icon and dial the number that Kam gave me and I wait while she calls. And it didn't take long and soon I was attended to.

— Forbidden Love Company, good morning! — The attendant tells me.

- Hi good morning! My name is Fernanda de Freitas I'm returning the call about an interview!

"Wait just a moment!" – The attendant says.

- OK! — I answer and wait and it doesn't take long for the attendant to speak again:

— Hi Mrs. Freitas, it says here that the call was actually made for you! —The attendant talks to me and keeps saying: — Could you come here tomorrow to do an interview with us?

- Of course yes! — I answer quickly.

- Great! Could you have come at 10:00 in the morning? - She says.

— Yes, you can let me be there! — I answer and she obliges and when I'm about to hang up I realize that I don't know who, I should look for it and ask: — Please, who should I look for?

"Oh yes, sorry my head! She says laughing.

- No problem! - I comment laughing too.

— Look, look for Andressa Sanches and good luck, Mrs. Freitas! — She says and I thank her and I ask her name and she says her name is Cristina Alves and we say goodbye.

The next day...