Chapter 2

he frowned but his eyes seemed to hope that what I was saying was true. I really lacked attention too much, that's why he's like this.

"How can that happen, mom? You're busy taking care of the sick, aren't you?" He asked innocently. There is no trace of reproach.

I smiled. He was very kind and always understood me. He was like Harris, never tired of understanding me.

"Because Doc Cian told me something. I already told you about him, didn't I?" Even though he was 10 years old, I still held him and hugged him. He didn't complain, I even heard him laugh when I did that.

"Yes, mom. He's your doctor's friend who is kind and gentle. Why?" I smiled. They haven't seen each other yet but they already know each other just because of my stories.

"Yes. Because Doc Cian told me that I won't be working at the hospital for a while. Emi," I pretended to say sadly. He forced himself to face me even though he was holding me.

"Huh? Did he fire you from work? Did I think he was nice?" I laughed when I felt his voice rise. My son is so cute.

"It's not like that, he told me. He said I'm going to take care of a boy.. I'll only work every morning so I can drop you off and pick you up from your school. You'll be with me for two months, Emi!" I'm happy to tell you. He got out of the hug and hugged me.

"Come on! Is it true, mom?" He said in disbelief.

I don't like Emi but for you, I'll do it. "Yes, t-it's true." I said sure.

"I'm so happy, mom!" He jumped even more after that. He was obviously very happy. His happiness is so shallow. I smiled, he really is my heaven. He makes me happy and comfortable.

He ended up jumping. "Mama! Who will you take care of? Why only one? Is that possible?" he asked. I lost my smile.

I'll take care of your father, Emi.

"F-he's Doc Cian's friend. He had an accident and needs a nurse like me to get him well. Doc Cian said it's okay." I stammered.

"Ah! Your doctor friend is really kind, mom! I'm so happy! I won't be alone anymore!" He said really happy.

"Yes, Emi. You weren't really alone. You were left alone but I will find a way to come back and stay by your side, Emiliana." He nodded.

"I know that. Good luck mom! I know you can heal Doc Cian's friend because you are a good nurse!" He will give me more courage.

"I hope so, maybe when he sees me it will only hurt him more." None of my own words.

"Huh? Why mom?" Emi suddenly asked. Emi is my comfort zone, because she is mature enough to think and even though she is young, she can give me advice. Emi is such a smart kid. He knows everything about me, except for one.

Who is his father..

He never asked me about his father but mom told me that Emi was asking him. He didn't answer any of her questions because what mom wanted was mine.

I'm not telling stories because what else is it for? If I tell Emiliana about Harris, she will only want to be with him, which is impossible because of the way I hurt her feelings. Emi will hope and wait for nothing, I don't want her to feel what I feel.

Because until now I hope and wait for the chance that he will accept me again.

"Emi, mom has a question for you." My introduction.

"What is that?"

"For example, I told you that I'm leaving you and that I don't love you anymore. How would you feel?" I suddenly asked. I don't know why I am asking him like this.

He was holding her chest. "Mom, I'm sick. You're not going to do that to me, are you?" I felt the fear and pain when he said that.

I hugged him and gave him a kiss on the forehead. "I won't do that to you, Emi. I will never leave you and hurt you,"

"Thank you, mom."

I forced a smile. Just saying that hurt him too much. Especially maybe Harris. He loved me so much then I left him. I have no right to ask for a second chance.

"Go to sleep, Emi. Don't worry about everything that uncle Aven said to you, huh?"

He nodded. "I won't be sad anymore mom. You're already here." He said with a smile.

"Alright, go to sleep. Good night, Emi."

"Good night, mom. I love you."

"Love you too, son."

I watched him sleep. His face is peaceful, far from what I saw when I came home. I arranged the things we would use tomorrow before laying next to him to sleep.

"What is it? You bought breakfast just for Emiliana? What about us, Raffa?" I closed my eyes when I heard brother Aven's angry voice again.

"Brother, I'm just rewarding Emi because she has great honors at school. Then I cooked you breakfast, right?" I took it back from her while fixing Emi's food that I bought last night at a fast food chain. Emi is still sleeping and I will wake her up later.

He hit the table hard. "Are we going to have fun, Rafflesia, huh? If you just bought fast food, you would have sympathized with us!" My eyebrows met at what he said.

"What the hell, brother? Don't you understand that Emiliana is a child and needs this kind of treatment? It's because you don't care about my daughter. Do you think I don't know that you said hurtful words to her again?" I said annoyed.

"Eh wasteful. The TV is going to be turned on tonight! Because you are the same burden in this household. Raffa." His words were like a knife stabbing my heart.

"Aven Rafael! What are you saying to Raffa again?" Mom attended me. He was in front of me again. Mom is really my protector whenever my brother is like this.

My brother taught me. "That's why. You know we're poor and then we act rich? Hey, Raffa! Wake up, we're poor and we're still poor because of you, you!" There were tears in my eyes.

"Aven, can't you see that only Rafflesia is keeping us alive right now? She's working hard at the hospital just to earn money. She's the one who feeds you and teaches you. Don't you owe something? Did you contribute something to this? at home, huh?" Mom said angrily.

"We would have been relieved if Raffa mama hadn't gotten pregnant. Because she got pregnant, I had to make sacrifices that were wasted!" My brother is revisiting the past. I bowed down.

"You are just like your name, looks like an Angel but a parasite." He said before turning back.

Maybe it's because of the emergency that my brother can tell me all that. Just because of that.

I wiped the tears from my eyes.

When I become a private nurse, we will be more at ease, brother. Even though I don't want to show Harris because of the magnitude of my sin against him, I will agree to be his personal nurse. My face is getting thick. To make up for our family.