On Top of Him

By the time I was back, Ren’s eyes were closed as he continued to battle his fever. Sorry Ren but I need to remove some of your clothes to wipe you with cool water, I apologized silently to Ren inside my head. I slowly reached out my hand and began disrobing him. This is for medical purposes, but this is my first time undressing a man, I couldn’t stop my hands from trembling slightly as I tugged and pulled at his top. Finally, I managed to completely remove his clothes from his upper body.

I sucked in a breath as my eyes took in the sight before me. Thankfully, Ren still had his eyes closed otherwise he would have seen my shocked reaction. I knew that Ren was tall and much bigger than me, but I didn’t expect that beneath his clothing hid such a well sculptured and muscular body. I’ve never seen a man without a shirt on before, but I knew enough that a standard man did not look as beautiful as this. He must be a very fit and active trader to have such a well-toned body. His muscles were beautiful, taunt and firm.

Unconsciously, I slowly reached out my hand towards the muscle of his chest. His skin felt hot against my fingertips as I ran my fingertips down from his chest, tracing gently downwards towards his magnificently formed abdominal muscles. Ren’s soft moan brought me back to my sense. What did I just do? I need to focus on healing him.

Back to my senses, I quickly grabbed the wet towel. After squeezing it until it was damp and ready, I gently used it to wipe along Ren’s arm, one after the other. Then I wiped his neck, chest and the plain of his stomach. Ren made soft moaning sounds as his body slowly began to relax.

I need to flip him onto his stomach to wipe his back. Ren’s body was still very hot to the touch, his fever has not yet broken. Using all the force that I could muster, I managed to flip Ren onto his stomach. If I thought that the sight of his naked back would be any less amazing than the front of his torso, I was so wrong. Even his back was amazingly sculpted with ripped muscles. Being a trade and a traveler must be harder than I ever imagined if it made them have a body as fit as this.

I placed my palm against the muscle of his broad back before starting to wipe him with the damp towel. Over and over, I wiped him, changing the cool water so that the water could absorb and remove the heat from his feverish body. I wasn’t sure how long I was at it, but it must have been a good long while.

“There…all done finally…” I said as I silently complimented myself for my efforts. I heaved a sigh of relief as I wiped the sweat from my brow.

Ren must be asleep by now. Hopefully his fever would get better by the time that he wakes up. I guess, I should prepare some food for when he wakes up. I’m feeling a little hungry myself.

“Ah!...” I let out a small yelp in shock.

Ren suddenly grabbed my wrist as I was pulling away. His eyes were still closed though…is he still sleeping? His grip on my wrist was quite tight, although it didn’t hurt. I attempted to pull my wrist away, but his grip didn’t budge. I can’t get up from the bed this way…what should I do?

“Don’t…leave…me…” Ren spoke softly and very weakly. Was he sleep talking?

“Ren…” I called his name softly, but he didn’t respond.

Instead of relaxing his grip on my wrist, his powerful arm yanked and pulled me down on top of him.

“Ren!” I cried out in full panic as I felt his hot body against mine. The heat from his body seeping in through my clothes and I could feel the hardness of his body on mine. My heart was beating wildly, and my body felt hot as his scent enveloped me.

Ren still had his eyes closed; however, his arms were very active in capturing me and binding me to him in a very tight embrace. His strong arms encircled my body and hugged me close against his muscular chest. No matter how much I struggled, I couldn’t move or remove his arm from around my body. Ren snuggled closer to me as he breathed deeply as if in a very comfortable sleep.

Do I have to sleep on top of him like this until he lets go or until he wakes up?

What should I do? I can’t move at all like this. I’ve never been this close to a man except for my father before and back then I was still a child. I couldn’t control my fast-beating heart and my fast breathing. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it’s going to burst from my chest. Can Ren feel my heartbeat? I could feel his strong heartbeat underneath my palm as it rested against his naked chest. I could hear his steady heartbeat with the side of my head lying on his muscular chest.

We’re too close. This is not…good. The sensation of his hard and naked body against mine felt so foreign yet not unpleasant. I felt my face blush even hotter and hotter at the thought. I need to calm down, I thought as I looked up at Ren’s sleeping face. He’s…actually…very handsome, isn’t he?

Lin! What are you thinking at a time like this? He’s your patient and nothing more. You need to focus on healing him so that he can return to his journey. That’s right…soon Ren will leave this place and I probably won’t get to see him ever again. I should never forget that fact. My exhaustion suddenly hit me, and my eyelids suddenly felt very heavy…

--To be continued...