Breaking her

Reina's POV

"Ahaha," I chuckled softly, amused with what I have just heard,

" You didn't mean that right?" I blinked severally at him, not wanting to believe what I had just heard.

" Tell me you didn't fucking mean what you have just said, Richard? Tell me you do not want to break me in such a way…tell me you do not want to break my heart just like that…please…" I bellowed, shutting my eyes tightly before opening them.

"Tell me you aren't giving up on us" I pleaded with him, moving closer to touch him, to run my hands on him if it meant him knowing that I was here

" I am tired Reina, of this charade we call marriage, of what we have…. I am tired already" he answered me, his gaze drifting off, he wasn't looking at me, perhaps was that how much he hated me. Did my presence disgust him?

I shook my head, not wanting to accept what I had just heard,

"We can make this work, Richard, you know that we can, don't you? You have always told me that we can do whatever we set our mind to do…remember?" I placed my hands on his arms, arms that had comforted me when we were having sex, hands that I would always want to be in

"We have been trying Reina, for the past four years, we have been putting in effort. I have been putting in the effort but I feel worse with each day that passes. I cannot breathe, you are suffocating me, your love is suffocating me and I want to breathe… I need to breathe and you need to go away from me"

My steps faltered and I took a deep breath to think properly " Please…. Please do not do this to me Richard, you are free to do whatever it is that you want to do…I wouldn't hold you back, just don't leave me... I cannot…. I cannot think straight without you, all I am pleading for is your presence, just that so please…don't leave me"

He scoffed, pulling my hands away from him, " This is one effing reason I do not like you anymore. Can you see how you are lowering yourself just so I can be in your life? Tell me, Reina, aside from your wit, what else do you have? Perhaps are you scared that no one would want your sorry arse anymore, you disgust me"

I flipped my gaze at him,amidst my sobs, amidst the reminder that my heart had been broken earlier, I was determined to make things work, was I asking for too much?

"Tell me, Richard... Why does it have to end this way? I did everything you wanted me to do…you wanted my shares, and I gave them to you, you wanted my body, I gave it to you, and even my love…. you have them all.. so tell me" my voice quivered with anguish as I tried to find the right words to say

It felt like my heart was being yanked out of my body and stomped on, I needed all of this to make sense, I needed to know why I wasn't worth it when I had given my all, why was I being treated like trash?

"I never asked for anything," he shrugged, walking past me,

"All of this, I never wanted it and you knew that, you gave me your heart because you thought I warranted it, you gave it all because you knew no one else wanted you"

I placed a hand on my chest when his words pierced through, like tiny needles, they broke me, shattered me into tiny pieces, pieces I knew wouldn't be recoverable but still I wanted him, I wanted him to know that I was finally having his children, that he was going to be a father, would it make any difference?

"And that is what you think is right? Or perhaps is it because of who you had in your office?"

He gazed at me,mouth agape" You were in my office?"

" Yes" I nodded, " I was in your office and I heard them all, the moans, the grunts, the fact that she kept urging you on, I stood out there, and even when they kept resonating in my ear, even when.." I squeezed my eyes tightly, trying as hard as I could not to recall what had happened before flicking them open

I let out sniffled noises when he stared at me shocked, "I listened as my husband banged into another woman who wasn't me, as he fucked someone who wasn't me and I came back here, waiting for you, waiting to talk to you…"

" I do not want a divorce," I shook my head, objecting to what he had said earlier

" I don't, I do not want one, all I am asking is you by my side, and we can start afresh so please…don't do this to me…your company still needs me, please…"

He stared at the ceiling, before glancing at me, his eyes, olive brown, danced when they came in contact with the lightning in the room. I could tell he was having a hard choice, he needed me, he needed me in his life.

" Ariana is back…"

I stumbled backward, my hands gripping the hardwood in front of me,

" Ariana?" I wanted to be sure of what I had heard,

I fidgeted with my hands while gulping down the lump that was stuck in my throat, "Was she the one…the same person you had in your office?"

The silence that followed gave me the answer I needed, I flicked my head to the table, where the documents lay.

" Divorce papers" were written boldly on it and all it would take was my signature and whatever we had would be annulled but I didn't want to let him go, not to Ariana, a childhood friend of mine who had always wanted everything I wanted.

" Sign those Reina, and get out of my life, I am expecting a child with Ariana soon and I have promised to stay by her side, so get out of my life" My gaze followed his slender legs as he walked up the stairs and my legs moved as fast as they could toward him.

Wrapping a hand around his wrist, I flipped him around, smiling wryly at him, " I have something to tell you also, I went to the doctor today and…."

" Get. Out. Of. My. Life" he shoved me aside, spitting harshly to my face. I gasped out in shock as I felt my legs give way, before stumbling backward, I stretched out a hand at him, hoping that he would hold me, but when a grin appeared on his face, I knew I was done for,

I wrapped my hand firmly around my stomach protectively as I rolled down the stairs, a tear slipped through my eyes before I slumped on the marble tiles.