Changing Bobby

I let out a loud scream as I hit something hard.I open my eyes and sat up breathing heavily, sweating,trembling. I look around as my dream rush back to my mind.I brought my knees to my chest and held them tight.

"Mom,dad".I whispered.I was so scared.

My bedroom door open and my grandma walked in,as soon as she saw me she came over and held me in her arms.I hug her back as she caress my hair and whisper soothing things while rocking us back and forth. I stop tremble and she brought me back up to my bed and I laid down with her next to me.She sang my favorite song,the one that my mom always sang around the house.With her caressing my hair I close my eyes and soon enough I was asleep again.

I woke up,feeling the heat of the sun on my arms and face through my now open windows.I pulled the blanket over my head and close my eyes.

"Honey you have to get up.I don't want you over sleeping or else you won't sleep tonight".My grandma shook me.

I pulled the blanket off and she smile and walked out.I went to my bathroom and stand in front of the mirror.I ran a hand through my hair and stared at my self.

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My name is Bobby Shouter I'm gay and 16 and turning 17 in about a month.I hate my birthday it always remind me of ......what happened.I don't have friends because I'm scared of everybody, except my grandparents who I live with.I have jet black hair,brown eyes and my skin is very pale.I only wear black or white clothes and I paint my finger nails black and I use to cut my self,well I'm working on that.Otherwise the only way to discribe my self is that I'm a broken 16 year old boy that's afraid of everything that moves because of something that happen last year.I won't tell you though.I hate to think of it much less talk .

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I took a shower and went downstairs,I headed into the kitchen and sat down at the table.My grandpa ruffled my hair and then pat it.

"Morning kiddo,sleep alright last night?".he ask sipping his tea.

I shrug."I guess".

My grandma came over with my breakfast and I started eating. I was a little tired to be honest

"Honey,Cindy and her grandson is coming over today,I'm just reminding you in case you want to stay down here with us".

I shook my head,"I said I'm staying in my room I don't want to see anyone".She nod not bothering to argue,she knew I was afraid of people.

Cindy and my grandparents have been best friends before I was even born.We move here after what happened back at my old house and we were now closer to her,about a block away and she was coming over today with her grandson to welcome us and I'm staying in my room.I'm terrified of people you don't know who you can trust and you don't know good people from bad people unless someone dies.

I finish eating and played cards with my grandpa while grandma made dinner for the guest.

"So exited to attend your new school?".grandpa asked somewhere through the game.

"Yea,can't wait".I lied forcing a smile on my lips.

I didn't want to go back to school,a new school,full with people that might kill me.I would freak out on the first day.I hate people, they scare me.