I don't deserve this

• | Adriel's POV | •

The taxi I was riding in stopped in front of my Ravino El Condominium where Allen now lives. I don’t know why he bought the condo, neither did dad mention it to me.

I got out of the taxi and went straight into the Comdominium. I took the elevator and hit the 7th floor.

I didn't feel any nervousness or even chest pain. And I'm not going to fight Allen. I just want to know what he is doing and whether he lives well.

It's three o'clock in the afternoon and I'm sure Allen is still in the office. When the elevator rang I immediately got out. Before I could find Room 107 I first went to a receptionist.

"I can't, ma'am."

I took off my black glasses and also removed the malong I was wearing. Mama even gave it to me when I was in high school.

"I am Adriel Sandoval, my husband is Allen Sandoval."

"I-I'm sorry ma'am, s-just a minute ..."

He handed me the key card of Allen's house. I reached for it with a smile.

"Thank you .."

I turned my back on the woman and went straight for the walk. Fortunately, I found Allen's house right away. When I opened it, I immediately entered.

Allen is a clean man. I was amazed to see how clean the living room was. There wasn’t even any frame hanging on each wall. I went to the kitchen and slowly opened the refrigerator. I was devastated to see the refrigerator empty. I stared at the empty rice cooker. It was still dirty and obviously unwashed. There is also a dish in the sink that has not been washed. Maybe because of his haste he no longer cleaned the ones that needed to be cleaned.

I took off my cardigan and started cleaning up the clutter I could see in the kitchen. It only took me a few minutes before heading to his room.

I smiled as I smelled the fragrance of each of Allen's items again. I feel like he is by my side again. I miss his scent, I miss my husband.

I was holding my mouth when I saw the photo of Allen and me when we got married neatly sitting on the study table. I slowly touched it. There were tears in my eyes. It's okay with me even if Allen doesn't take me home, as long as he remembers me, that's okay.

Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw in a large frame the photo of us when we got married. I wear Allen’s ring. And we only took the picture with our hands.

I also hung out in Allen’s room for a long time. Every time I lay down on his bed I feel like he hugs me. I looked at what time it was, it was five o'clock in the afternoon. I picked up my cellphone to call Ellen.

"Eli where are you?"

'Grocery ako dai'

"That's right, I'll change something, I'll just text you."

'All right, wait a minute.'

I cut the line and texted Ellen what I was going to change. Before I leave, I will cook Allen a dish so that he can eat properly.

I poured all my effort. The one I bought from Ellen also arrived. The first thing I did was I ate and started cooking pork porridge.

It took me an hour to cook. It's a good thing Allen hasn't arrived yet. He can't know I came here. I also talked to a receptionist not to tell me who the porridge I cooked came from.

I reached for my bag and was about to leave when the door opened. I turned pale to see Allen who was also surprised by what he saw.

"What are you doing here?"

I did not immediately respond. What am I doing here? I also do not know.

"And how did you get in here?"

I took out the key card and showed it to him. "I have your key card."

"Where did you get that? This is my private place!"

"And why? I'm your husband Allen."

"We're already separated—"

"Separated? It's your decision Allen, your own decision. Did you inform me before you did the interview? Didn't you!"

"Get out."

"Allen I'm also human just like you, I have feelings too."

I turned my back on him because I could no longer. I get hurt almost every day. I let my tears flow as I walked. People are looking at me. I just stayed on the chin.

I don't deserve this.

• | Adriel's POV | •

While I was in the car I couldn’t stop shedding my tears. I cry almost every day. And the reason for that is my own wife.

We promised god we would not hurt each other. We promised that we would care for and love each other. Will not be left in hardship and comfort.

I want to be loved. I want to experience being loved by the person I love. Because I didn’t feel that way in my family.

"What makes you cry?"

Suddenly the driver asked. I could not immediately answer his question. Maybe he was already annoyed with my sniffle sniff so he asked.

A few moments later he handed me a handkerchief. "The handkerchief doesn't help to erase the dark and painful path you're going through. But it does help to erase the tears that fall from your puffy eyes."

I don't have a handkerchief or tissue so I have no choice. I took the handkerchief he handed me.

"You can get through that too. I'll let you free the person who caused you to cry every day."

At the same time he said he was stopping the car in front of the Allen family home.

"People get angry because there is a good reason. But I really love you and I think you can still, trust me. Love is heavier than the anger you feel."

"W-what do you mean?"

"Same problem, same love story, same situation."

I can't understand him. I just handed him the payment and he quickly went down. Weird.

I entered the house and found Bevei playing with a bunch of flowers.

"Adi my loves!" Faith greeted me.

"Oh here you are? I thought you bought a house?"

I laughed when I saw his face frown. "I canceled it. Are you kidding the owner of that condomimium is Santillan."

Santillan? he used to tell me that story. I just smiled when I remembered who he was referring to.

"Don't you want to see each other again."

"No way! I don't want to have a connection with that man."

I just ignored him. I sat down next to Bevei. Why do I seem to have seen this flower? I immediately picked up my cellphone to look at the email sent to me by Edrick. And I am totally right!

"Bevei who gave you this?" I point to the flower.

"Aah this? K-kuya Allen po .... ate."

What ?! so the one he gave the flower to was Bevei?

"Why does Adi have a problem?"

Faith groaned.

"Did Allen give it to you?" I point to the flower again. Faith nodded.

"Ah yes, he was here yesterday. Bevei is improving his speech a bit so he asked me what reward his brother wanted. Bevei's answer was a bouquet of flowers."

So didn't Allen give the flower to another woman? but his brother? I rested deeply. I was wrong again.

"I have a secret that they are Allen." Faith complains while eating cookies. "Bevei what's your brother's secret? Tell us."

Bevei laughed. "S-sec ... ret."

I get excited when I see Bevei happy. Allen loved his brother dearly. A habit I liked in him.

"A-the clue is about a-ate Adi." After he said 'no, he ran upstairs carrying the bouquet given to him by his older brother.