CHAPTER 05: CONTROVERSY

ELIZA

I turned to look at him, trying to make sure I had heard him right. He understood the look of confusion I gave.

“I said you’re pregnant. Have you been aware of this?”

I shook my head, giving him a negative reply.

“It can’t be. I mean, I don’t understand how”

I was utterly shocked and confused. How am I pregnant? I had always been extremely careful with Lincoln. Why should this happen now?

“If I may ask, when did you see your last monthly flow?”

That was when it dawned on me, I was supposed to see my flow about a week ago.

“About a month and some weeks now”

Memories of the other night with Lincoln came back to me like lightning bolt. I had not taken my pills like I used to.

This is so fucked up!

“I need to go.” I announce to the doctor.

“You’re stressed and for your condition, I think you should stay a bit longer for more check up”

“No, really doctor, I have to go. I have things to take care of.”

I need to take care of this mess.

“Alright then, if you insist. Just try to reduce your stress level, for the baby’s health and yours too.”

The word ‘baby’ made me cringe knowing it was my baby he was referring to.

Once Nick woke up, I made my way out of the hospital remembering Lincoln and the business meeting. At this point, there was obviously no need flying back to Turkey, the business meeting was probably over so I went home instead, and the sudden thought of me being pregnant had greatly changed my entire mood.

I walk in the door to my quiet apartment, straight to the kitchen, to have a drink of water. Filling my glass with water, I chug it down my throat. I made my way back to the sitting room and threw myself on the couch. After over thirty minutes of pondering, I get up and lazily strolled to my room. I took out my phone from my purse.

Oh no! I had a lot of missed calls.

Lincoln.

The assistant manager.

Lincoln.

Lincoln again.

I knew I was in so much trouble with him. I undressed and tiredly walked into the bathroom. I spend the next ten minutes in the shower to rinse up. I lean forward and let the water beat down on my back, allowing all my emotions seep out. I stare blankly at my beautifully tiled wall, ruminating about that night, Lincoln, my life, and the new being in me; my baby; our baby.

I was going to have a child. No this isn’t the right time!

I couldn’t think of Lincoln’s reaction to the news. He was going to kill me; I’m not exaggerating.

Just when I was about stepping out of the bathroom, I thought I heard a bang from the front door.

I gently took a neat towel, wrapped it around my body and walked out of the bathroom.

Bang! I heard it again.

Again and again, it kept getting louder.

I walked to the front door and released the bolt.

“Why did you leave without informing me?” Was what I heard once the door sprung open.

“Lincoln”

“That’s not the answer to my mother fucking question” he nudged me aside and strolled into my apartment. The banged door startled me a little. I knew he was going to be mad at me, but I never expected this amount of rage.

You could see the flame from him, it was in his eyes and voice.

“ I had an emergency I’m…I’m sorry”

“You’re sorry? Are you fucking kidding me right now”

I couldn’t look at him, my feet suddenly got my attention.

“Look at me Liza” he pressed hard on my chin turning me to face him

“I almost went crazy looking for you everywhere and you’re here sitting peacefully…you didn’t even call….or drop a note….answer me before I fucking make you” He grunted, pressing so hard on my chin. Now he was angry.

“You’re hurting me Lincoln…I said I’m sorry” I managed to voice out, tears already filled my eyes

“Oh darling you’d experience a whole lot more if you don’t start talking”

“My brother needed surgery, I had to come back…I’m sorry”

“Aww you came back to play big sis and left my company affairs” he chuckled darkly.

“That’s my brother” I suddenly pushed him a few steps backward

He stared quietly at me, hands on his waist, disbelief written on his face. He scoffed, which I always hated.

“Alright princess! Two can play this game”

He slowly started walking back to me, I backed by a few steps till I was trapped in the wall with him pressing on me and starring deep into my eyes.

“Now listen to me baby girl” he slowly traced my face “You will go back into your room and put on some clothes”

I foolishly leaned into his touch.

“Pick a few important things and throw your perfect round ass back here”

“Where are we going to?” I whispered.

“Since you know so well how to run away, you will be staying with me” he smirked

“No … what….” He muffled the rest of my words with his hand .

“You don’t have a choice princess…go get dressed or I’ll have you bundled this way into my house. Actually, I think I prefer this outfit” he ran his tongue along my chin and bit my earlobe gently.

“I said I’m sorryy” I winced.

He slightly pushed me towards my room and slapped my ass in the process. I looked at him briefly before walking to my closet. I took out my box pretending to be packing, I wasn’t even concentrating on the clothes I was taking out.

I knew there was no way of changing his mind now.

Well the very stubborn and adamant man I was dealing with really made up his mind to have me move in with him and it’s not like I have a say in whatever it is he has planned out. I just know staying in his house wasn’t really the best of ideas. We stayed together previously but at least I had some private times to myself. Now, he was going to be everywhere; at work, at home… my mind flashed back to the report from the hospital and I shivered. I fucked up. Big time.

I occurred to me again that I didn’t take any preventives after the last time we had sex. I sighed. This really isn’t a good time for all this drama.

“What are you thinking about?” I heard behind me and I startled again.